condolence

"just cry.."

"i'm sorry to hear of your loss."

"i'm sure she's in a better place now."

"condolence."

there are a lot of things you can say to a friend when a beloved had passed away. but sometimes, it's better to say nothing.

give space.

let them mourn.

*headphones on*

I'm currently checking out gilby's music collection on his blog. Reminds me of early morning joyrides. :)

www.berglovespizza.com

fete dela musique 2009

i'll make this quick coz it's late and i need to wake up really early.

Fete was located at Metrowalk Ortigas. i kinda felt i was too old to even go there but actually, i went there to expose my new friends who rarely go out from laguna. i was curious, too, what the scene would look like. it was quite dissapointing because it was not as grandiose as it was back in 2003 and 2004. the bands were fewer and the zoning was weird. we didn't get to see the reggae since we had to pay for the entrance fee.. nevermind! LOL. we just stayed outside and listened. at pop alt stage, i've heard music fresh to my ears. nice! mostly, we stayed in the pop alt stage for calalily (aiza's crazy about kean, the singer). took pictures. i never payed attention to calalily's music until last night. they were great.

@world music. very very few artists. no cynthia alexander, makiling ensamble, bayang and the whole gang.... but kadangyan was there. root of nature has a superb percussionist. absolutely superb. but i think, domeng's better still.

@metal rock. heavy security. it was like going to a place with no tomorrow, like a death valley. everyone was wearing black. the stage was covered with a protective net so that the artist won't get hit by UFOs thrown by crowd.

i shall post another entry for another topic about what had happen. i'm too sleepy to continue. ok good night to me. :)

blogs from multiply

ok... so here are some blog entries from mulitply which i failed to import here. :)

http://nanaxiu.multiply.com/journal/item/158/first_blowout_Sept_2004

http://nanaxiu.multiply.com/journal/item/151/RIP_francis_magalona

http://nanaxiu.multiply.com/journal/item/148/patawang_linya.

http://nanaxiu.multiply.com/journal/item/145/elizabethtown

http://nanaxiu.multiply.com/journal/item/135/My_NEW_Hairdooooo

http://nanaxiu.multiply.com/journal/item/134 = american idol finale

http://nanaxiu.multiply.com/journal/item/142/w.a.c

http://nanaxiu.multiply.com/journal/item/143/the_hotdogs

http://nanaxiu.multiply.com/journal/item/144/home_visit

http://nanaxiu.multiply.com/journal/item/136/BED_BUG

http://nanaxiu.multiply.com/journal/item/133/new_strat

http://nanaxiu.multiply.com/journal/item/60/I_just_miss_the_old_gang_in_people_support._My_...

pag walang magawa...

ganto ang ichura ko pag walang magawa.

kahapon lang to.

walang pasok kaya tambay kami ni aiza.

kausap namin si ate aimee thru YM.

so bonding kaming tatlo.

makalat yung kwarto.

BP pictures

(X-sign means, no more BP. it was the end of the road for us. naks.)

I was reading through my old entries and it felt like opening an old closet jam-packed with old memories. :) i have an entry about our last meeting with BP with a picture on it. so i thought of posting this picture here which was taken in 2007. we've never had a complete picture except the fete 2004 photo posted in the newspaper. good old days.

here are other old pictures which i've never posted anywhere, i guess. haha

wala lang magawa. hahaha. ;)

realizations

As we spoke and ate on the table, grilling time was up for me... one asked.. " e ikaw, nakikita mo ba ang sarili mo as a nurse habang buhay?"... i told them..."hindi." ..."e ano sa tingin mo ang magiging trabaho mo in the long run?"..." ewan ko."..."aaah.. nako.." (with the facial expression that may have said..tsk tsk tsk. tanda mo na hindi mo pa alam)...and i said, kind of defensively," pero hindi ako worried. di katulad ni ***, na parang din pa nya alam kung ano ang gusto nya talaga."... and she once again asked, "e ano nga yung nakikita mo?" .... ok so i was getting uncomfortable with the question coz i dont have an answer or not sure what i was supposed to answer. stupidly i said, "kusinera" with a nervous laugh... and the other one said,"bakit hindi ka nalang maging writer.. para kang anak ni bob ong magsulat...".

i don't understand why i got uneasy. they are my friends. i should be comfortable telling them anything. And then i realized, i was talking to people who have kick-ass designations, who earn mega bucks and who know exactly what they really really love in life.

I got uneasy... then bitter... then felt like crying... but of course i didn't look like it.

the next day, i was still thinking of what had happened... i felt bad that i have mentioned ****'s name, comparing her to me... i felt bad that i was not able to explain myself clearly.

it was nice talking to ert a bit about it online. at least i was able to share my feelings now. it was a breather. it's not that i composed some answer to defend myself... i just realized that the reason why i don't see myself as a nurse is because, stupid as it may sound, i still associate 'nurse' as a katulong lang of the doctors (which is super wrong talaga). And to speak the truth, i really can't still see what i'll be in the future... i'm still wishing/ hoping that this is my calling. i do love the medical field now. I'm not like yi who sees herself 20 years from now. Not like ert who (wanted to be and) is now a teacher. not like mygz who likes computers ever since she was born and who has a beautiful son and a husband. I'm just me... and 'me', for sure, will have a mark in this world someday.

Fairy godmothers. :)

by: mygz TR (6-1-09)

I love this picture courtesy of mygz. It looks like a poster of a feel- good movie. :) Mygz is leaving today for Singapore. I'm really happy that she has recovered from all the needles and chemo and radiology therapies she had.

As this gathering was for mygz's going away party, it was also a welcoming party for ert comingfrom indonesia.

It was so nostalgic... the 4 of us, together + our beautiful godson, ULAN. :) haha... just a thought, we looked like fairy godmothers here. LOL!

Mygz is continuously growing her hair back, ayi had a new hair cut and ert just had her hair colored.

Ulan was so adorable. :)

I wonder when this will happen again. hrmm.

I had my 3rd shot today. ate rochie dropped me off in front of CDH.

I want to go somewhere different today or do something, but I can't think of any place to go. And I've spent too much yesterday already when ate Aimee and I went to Shangrila Mall. Ran out of tickets for the La Pianiste movie. So, we just went trippin on food.

While walking back home, i was thinking of what my friends had told me. they said they could set me up with someone i could date... it's funny coz i think they're frustrated for me. anyway... i refused because of a couple of reasons. (1) i'm kind of shy meeting up with new people (2) i may not have the resources to communicate constantly, unless he'll go online. texting could be quite expensive (3) time could be an issue. must be focused on studies (4) i'd feel weird, being set up like that. i mean of course there would be some kind of expectation... what if we dont like each other? kakahiya naman don sa nag set up...

the term set-up is a weird word. i mean, relationships just happen, right? i know it's just a term. but it's weird

such a nega star... but i was actulally giving it a second thought. i felt like texting my friend and saying yes to it. why not?! right? it could help having some kind of inspiration. thing is, i don't have my friend's number. oh well, i hope that someone could be medically inclined somehow. it would be nice to talk about medical stuff, too. but musically/ artistically inclined people are still super fun to be with.

we had sort of a BP reunion last sunday. ayi, japs, domeng and melay werent there, sadly.we watched JP play. he was really good with the hand and 'toe' choreography he did while playing. haha.

i missed the bp boys. was nice seeing them again all grown up. ahaha

it was great catching up on stories with muffet an d burn. stayed with them til Shangrila closed.

that sort of gathering may happen after a 3- 5 years again. maybe.

sosyalan

what's the heck with all these social networks?! nasakit na ang ulo ko! may facebook na, may twitter pa! may friendster pa... may multiply pa..! (pero mahal ko ang multiply)... wala lang. gusto ko lang mag reklamo. hehehe

now that i dont have any classes, i should be reading my books more. i feel like i dont know anything yet, which really sucks! 

i should stay more focused this time. i'm about to be a 4th year student! i've got to keep it together this time! 

the concert

i've watched some youtube videos of archie and cook, being interviewed in eat bulaga and sis... archuleta is so adorable, i want to adopt him. haha. actually, i dreamt about him and cook last night. they were about to sing something ("crush" i think. or something else) and not sure if it was a duet (weird)... archie, forgot the words of his own song and sounded tired! geez... so cook told him to sing another song. even suggested something easy that he can remember the lyrics of.. the audience started to complain... waaah, poor boy. i hope it won't happen in real life. i mean, indeed, he sounded tired when he sang "crush" and "little too not over you"... as if he's having dyspnea. maybe he has asthma. hrmmm.

ang cute ng batang to.

i have a cold yesterday and a little dry cough. i dunno. maybe im dehydrated. or i may have gotten this from the rain. ..or maybe i got this from a patient!?! nooooo!!!! i dont want to have pneumonia! ... if i have it, is should have a fever. tsk... anyway.

it has been a lazy day for me. i read my handout, made some note and stayed online all day long.. im getting sick of this.

tomorrow, im going to visit emem in the hospital. she had a stiff neck.. poor friend... :) hope she'll feel better real soon.

thursday will be our final exam! oh my!

will be reading more tomorrow. no more facebooking and multiplying! and chatting...

i spoke with ert earlier. it's nice to vent out! *sighs*... about being madamot. ekek.. wala lang... ayun...

A Nurse's Prayer

Be me in the world

Be my voice to the deaf
Be my faith where there is doubt
Be my hope when there is despair
Be my light where there is darkness
Be my joy where there is sadness
Be me in the World
Be my eyes to the blind
be my consolation to those who need to be consoled
Be my understanding to those who need to be understood
Be my healing to those who need to be healed
Be my love to those who need lovebe my forgiveness to those who need to be forgiven
(Be my death to those who need me)
Be me in the world

Author unknown

WALANG TUBIG

badtrip. WALANG TUBIG! nasira kaya yung pump namin??? ngayon lang nawala. mga 11:30pm. *sighs*

anyway, mahal ang dinner namin ni ate rochie kasi bumili ako ng pink salmon. yun yung ulam namin. :) pinirito ko lang. tas nilagyan ko ng salsa. masarap... pero kung pinatikim ko kila tita mely yun, walang lasa. ahehehe.

http://find.myrecipes.com/recipes/recipefinder.dyn?action=displayRecipe&recipe_id=1823324

ni-substitue ko yung pink salmon sa halibut kasi baka allergic kami ni ate rochie.

photography and chinchillas

I had an acquaintance of a person�called ric, who showed me this creepy yet interesting photo. it somehow reminds me othe girl in the exorcist movie (what's her name? emily rose, if im not mistaken). anyway, he told me he wanted to make a similar shot. shutter speed must be slow in this one.

it's a holiday today! no school... no duty! i planned to go out earlier to grab a cake / go the market to buy fish for dinner. but it was raining. so i stayed at home. read a few pages of my book about meternal and child care. fell asleep... then woke up. ate rochie isnt here yet. she went to batangas to visit our house there with my lola.�

was boring. i watched very few tv programs ealier. hrmm.

oh, but hey!

i found out about chinchillas today! they're such cute little things. though they are rodents like squirrels and guinea pigs (which im not a fan of), these creatures are sooo cute. look at them! i thought they were small kangaroos. hahaha.. aren't they adorable??? :) My eye hurts already.

mygz and petchai adventure april 29, 2009

ayan si mygz, namamalengke! ktatapos lang ng radtherapy nya sa UST hospital. sinamahan

 ko sha. ang asteeg nung makina! ang lakilaki. tas umaandar yung kama. yung room parang malaking microwave.

saya din ng bonding namin ni mygz (altho mejo tahimik ako nung magkasama kami dahil may after shock pa ako nung incident). tagal na kasi kami hindi nakakapag bonding kasi hindi ako makaluwas madalas dahil may pasok. 

pagkatapos ng RT nya, kumain muna kami kasi sobrang gutom na ako... sayang hindi bukas yung friomix. naaliw din ako sa building ng UST. sinauna talaga! may mga statwa pa iababaw ng building. sa AC wala nun. 

nagtungo kami sa simbahan ng

quiapo. andon si Nazareno sa labas. nag dasal muna. gusto ko sana mag kuha ng mga litrato pero feeling ko may mag coconfiscate ng camera ko kasimay mga guard na mukang PSG. tapos namalengke kami ng mga gulay. merong bentahan ng mga abubut doon na ang mumura ng gamit! ang ccute pa! mga hindi pang karaniwang gamit, andon. bumili nga ako ng hikaw na korteng alimango.

first time ko sumakay sa ferryboat na naglalayag sa pasig river. nakakarelax sumakay don. parang MRT na parang eroplano sa loob nun. may aircon din. bawal mag picture sa tapat ng malacanang. ok. 

natuwa ako kasi nag journal reading kami ni mygz. walang akong journal. sha ang nagbasa. tuwa talaga ako sa mga sinusulat nya eversince. kung ippublish yun, parang adventure + inspirational + comedy all in one. haha. :) coolness! pwede itapat kay bob ong. hehe. :)

nakarating kami ng matiwasay sa bahy nila mygz. andon ang munting prinsipe na si U1. kakatuwa. palangiti yung batang iyun... at naglalakad na sa 

walker nya. nakikain ako ng palabok. ang sarap..

tas ayun, umalis na ako.. naiwan ko yung cucumber ko. 

...dream diner...

When i go the United States

the first thing im going to 

do is to go to a diner

and eat my heart out. 

Discovery- travel and living just showcased some of the popular diners in differnt states in america and my mouth just started to water. they showed these big plates of tasty looking burgers and fries and milk shakes... geez! (i can hear my stomach grumble).. apart from the savory delicacies, they showed nice old interiors, old furniture, classic design and an architecture, so unique (meaning, here, coz here, you'll see karindiryas). there are imitations of such in makati, glorietta, like the late 'cable car' diner and TGI Fridays... hrmmm... i guess. im hungry.

i havent actually eaten a decent meal today. while watching it, i remeber dad preparing breakfast for us when they came back. it was just the best. a plate full of food. what else can you ask for?!

anyhow, i enjoyed my frozen food, pancit, which was stuck since when, i dunno. haha.. but it still tasted good.. and my tummy havent felt strange. hehe. :) 

photo from http://www.dinercity.com/dinerFacts.html

grabe ang tagal kong gumawa ng drug study. hindi ako nakapasok ngayon sa duty kasi na late akong gumisng. pag gising ko, ang taas na ng sikat ng araw! 6: 15 am. kung pumasok ako, ganun din, considered absent narin ako. haaaay... dahil ayaw ko naman masayang ang isang araw sa bahay, gumagwa ako ng drug study ng e-cart. ang dami nito ah. at ang tagal kong gawin!!!! ang tagal tagal hindi panga ako tapos e. pagkatapos nito, feeling ko master piece... 

natutuwa ako. ang dami naming mga kuting. ang cute cute! parang mga furball na nag tatakbugan sa garahe namin. hindi narin sila takot. merong isang kuting na dayo. kulay itim. kawawa naman, iniwan ng nanay nya... pumunta saamin, kinalaro yung mga bagong kuting. hindi nga lang sha welcome sa mga malalaking pusa. tsk tsk.

sumasakit na yung likod ko dito. walang malambot na sandalan e.

sige ayun lang. ipost ko dito yung litrato ng aking mga nakakagigil na mga kuting. :) pero mamaya na kasi tamad ako mag download.

mex and petchai adventure

naku kelangan ko na mag tipid. nagpaayus kasi ako ng buhok e. pero satisfied naman. kasi, hehe ang ganda ng buhok ko ngayon pero parang piluka daw sabi ni ate rochie. nag pa thermal ako.

masaya din kasi pagkatapos ko mag pa thermal, nagkita kami ni em em. tas chika lang kami. tas sinamahan ko mag pa UA. 3-5 ang result. within the normal limit kasi 0-5 yung normal range.. pero kahit pa. present parin. so parang may infection. anyway... 

saya ng kwentuhan, tagal kasi hindi kami nakapagusap. kumain kami sa antonios. tas hinatid ako pag uwi. pinagtawanan nami yung scrapbook nuong unang panahon. tuwa naman. maglagay nalang ako ng mga litrato pag available na.