depression

tin sent me a text message earlier today and told me how depressed she was. i really feel sorry for her, feeling that way. she told me about it.. and it's sad. hope she'd feel better.

it's painful to find yourself alone, all your friends turned their backs on you. plus, your family, gone. tsk tsk....

my teeth today feel a little better. the kirots are not there but still, ilang parin mag bite. still have to have my teeth checked. i found a wound on my gum on the lower back at the right. i dunno where it came from. this is really weird.

Friends Going away

my closests friends are leaving the country!!! yesterday, ert and i went to glorietta. she'll be going to indonesia next week... im going to miss her. mygz, of course has been in singapore for a long time now.. :) oh well... it's nice being at the prime of your life. 25 years old... the year of being 25 is i guess the time when you really reach the dreams you really love.... i just got delayed. haha... oh well.

hrmmm.... i have decided. i will leave my teeth alone... i'll just do what the doctors say about it... if they find nothing, fine. live it that way. i just hope that i'll have 1 doctor. i dont want to change doctors anymore!

continuous dental journey

I told myself i'll never change dentists again.... but i dunno what's going to happen next for me . my dentist in makati said there's nothing wrong with my teeth the last time i went there. he said, the mild pain i'm experiencing is due to the grinding of teeth. he told me to continue wearing my mouthguard every night when i sleep. It seems comfortable to wear at first but for some reason it's getting uncomfortable when i wear it in longer periods. he said i should continue with my salt and water solution gargle.

i've mentioned that i saw some cracks on my teeth that might be causing the problem. he said, if the teeth were cracked, i would experience extreme pain.

i dunno. that's not what i've seen on the internet, the signs and symptoms i've read. but, hey, who am i to judge, im not a dentist!

sometimes, it's getting uncomfortable to talk. it feels like there's something sticking on my lower gum... it's so frustrating.... i have summer classes and it's hard to focus when you feel something odd...

i want to take pain killers, but why should i take them if im not sure if this sensation im feeling is pain! it feels swollen a bit now, sometimes, it doesnt... most of the time it does!!! jeez....

Maybe God is trying to tell me something....maybe... 'dont dwell too much on vanity, it's ok to loose your teeth, anyway, i made it..' or 'you're researching too much on cracked tooth... you want cracked tooth? i'll give it to you!' .... or maybe... 'ha! you used to judge people by the way their teeth look like?... well, let's check out how they feel!'...

waaaah!!!! Lord, why? why? why? why should i have to go thru this!? maybe this is an omen... yes, i care too much on how my teeth looks like! it's an asset! my teeth are almost straight, seems like nothing's wrong... now, i just want my teeth to be ok... feel ok....

the reason now why i don't feel like going to dr. makati is because, definitely, he'll think im crazy... i'm ashamed to go to dentists now. maybe they'll say, why dont you just to to a psychiatrist to check where that sensation is coming from.... this is just in my head... or maybe im not making myself clear... hrmmm, but i've told him, i have mild pain sometimes here, there, everywhere.... i mentioned i saw cracks.... i mentioned i (w/ my own negligence) wore the old mouthguard. i showed it to him but i cant remember if i told him specifically i wore the hard 1 (there's 2 of 'em)....

xrays were not done.... illuminations were not done.... haaay!

if i go to the dr. makati 2, he might ask, 'who's your doctor? who told you to go here?' ... jeez, you people are supposed to treat people not interrogate them... just like the incident w/ dr. laguna. well i understand his point. he said 'he respects his colleagues'... basically, he doesnt do second opinions.... oh well.. whatever... maybe i'll just be miserable forever.... with my semi-painful or sensitized whaterver teeth....

how can i bee happy again......

My dentist thinks im crazy

my dentist think im crazy. felt really bad yesterday.

probably im just imaging this discomfort im experiencing,... maybe not. i'll just let it go for now. in case i lose my tooth, i'll just have implants. sheesh.

ID

We had our return demo earlier today. again i got a 90% grade. hrmmm. oh well. classes will start on april 8...

hrmmm... im concerned about still about my teeth... in case the problem is severe cracks, then i really have to have a lot of money in the future i have more that 12 teeth affected... so it will cost me a million to correct the problem. poor me. oh well...

i wish that my root canalled tooth did not crack to the root. cant really afford to loose that... implants are sooo expensive! i see myself working abroad in the near future... so i have to have my teeth fixed real soon....

my dentist? he doesn't really do anything. how come the internet says a lot of symptoms about cracked teeth and a lot of tests... my doc didn't even out light on my teeth... most of the time i feel forgranted... maybe the reason he's not checking is because should i have cracked teeth, he'd think i don't have the money to pay for such expensive treatments... it's depressing. i want to see another doctor but i might end up transfering and transfering again....

i wish i have taken care of my teeth more that what i have been doing. i should've not worn that stupid mouthguard....

my heart breaks just by thinking about it. haaay.

A new website

as you can see, my profile has changed! well, that's actually for my new site. cant fuigure out how to separate the two. but that's fine... :)

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