Lazy bee

i have to take off this hideous make up. the face is getting itchy.

I was experimenting on smokey eye make up today... and it turned out to be "smoking eye".. haha! i had it all wrong, not even on each eye. i decided to play with it and put black eyeliner and black eyeshadow on my lips... i'm confused with my anatomy now! LOL

i look like the third member of the dresden dolls. that's ok, 'cause i've been listening to their music the whole day! i'm stuck with this ear candy at home, but, with no food and no one to talk to. (well, there IS food but i'm too lazy to cook. bad me.)... i know, i know... thou shall not be lazy when it comes to food. others die of hunger because, food, they have none...

i had more eventful activities prior to this day. i was just too lazy to blog it...

damn this laziness.

Birthday

What's special today? It's my birthday today!!! :D What did i do in this fine day?

70% Facebook and chat with friends. i practically stayed in facebook to check the greetings! haha.

10% Bought food for the Dinner party.

20% Family bday dinner time @ Sta. Cruz.

too much facebooking, huh?

Time to really get serious with the bucket list! :D

Suya

Yoko muna mag facebook.. nakaka-suya.

Ang Daming Panget

"Mga babae talaga..."

ngayon, naiintindihan ko na kung bakit ang mga lalaki ay nagsasabi ng gantong mga kataga. tayong mga kababaihan, minsan, magulo talaga ang pagiisip (o baka ako lang yun). *tok tok tok*

Anyway...

haaay gusto kong magrelax... feeling ko hindi naman ako natoxic sa ER. kahit ang daming dumating na panget. PANGET! may VA, gunshot wound, meron barado yung airway... yung isa, di na na- revive. yung isa, ewan. dapat tinubuan na sha, sisinghap singhap na kasi. late na nung binawi yung "refuse to intubate". sana na revive parin.

sikip sikip don sa surgery area. nakaka amaze paano gumalaw yung mga nars at doktor sa napakaliit na lugar. para lang kaming naglalaro ng doctor kwak kwak. feeling ko mag bubuhol buhol yung mga ECG at BP app, IV line at kung ano pa ang nakasukbit sa pasyente, pero hindi, very organized. ang galing nga e. dapat malaman ko pala ano dapat ang mga gamit na dapat iready kapag may panget. basta naobserve ko, hila agad ang ECG, ambobag, swero, laryngoscope, BP app.. ngerk, hindi ako nakapag CPR o nakapagbukas man lang ng epi. hehe. 10pm na kasi e. lumayas na ako. busy busy pa sila don. ang dami na nila.

isa pang weird sa araw na to. ako lang ang pumasok sa circle of friends namen. wala si mark, kim, marj, lyn, etc. nalungkot ako bigla kasi feeling ko, ako yung bago dahil may mga taga DOLE. dahil bago sila, feeling bago din ako. nakilala ko si Rose, bagong pasok sa hospital. DOLE. mabait naman sha.

weird... alam ko na.. nararamdaman ko na ang transition. na mawawala na kame... waah. nalulungkot ako!!!

pagkalabas ko ng hosp, nakita ko si anchie at si emman. gusto ko pa sana tumambay, kaso nga lang gabi na. kaya, umalis narin ako.

nawirdohan lang ako ngayong araw nato. at sa mga panahong nagdaan. ayoko na maging melancholic. may kasabihan nga na, being happy is a choice. i choose to be happy. it's ok to feel sad, but it's unhealthy to prolong the agonizing feeling. diba??? dibaaa????

mula ngayon, magiging masaya na ako. lahat ng tao, kaibigan ko. hindi na ako mapapraning kung ano ang tingin nila sakin. basta ako, i'll be myself, just like before. :D and i will do my best in everything i do. i shall keep the faith.

amen! bow! :D

ok naring yung hospital week. pero sana mas may oras pa para makipag bonding kasama ang group ko at ibang groups. haaay.. naluluha ako ng bahagya.

again... happiness is a choice.....

Bad Bad Bad

Petchai, you are so good at shooing away people. i know you don't mean to do it. But you are just soo good at it!

Bad bad bad.