magkabilaan ang mundo

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MAGKABILAAN
By Joey Ayala (http://www.opmpinoy.com)

Intro: D-C-G--; (2x)
       Dsus-C-G--; (2x)

Dsus         C         G
   Ang katotohanan ay may dalawang mukha
       Dsus     C                G
   Ang tama sa iyo ay mali sa tingin ng iba
         Dsus       C     G
   May puti,  may itim, liwanag at dilim
Dsus          C         G hold
   May pumapaibabaw at may     sumasailalim.

Filler: D-C-G--

       (Chord pattern Dsus-C-G--)
   Ang tubig ay sa apoy, ang lupa ay sa langit
   Ang araw ay sa gabi, ang lamig naman sa init
   Kapag nawala ang isa, ang isa'y di mababatid
   Ang malakas at ang mahina'y magkapatid.

Chorus
          Dsus C        G         Dsus C
   Magkabilaan   ang mundo magkabilaan
          G         Dsus C        G hold
   Ang mundo magkabilaan   ang mundo.

Filler: D-C-G--

(Chord pattern)
   Ang hirap ng marami ay sagana ng iilan
   Ang nagpapakain, walang laman ang tiyan
   Ang nagpapanday ng gusali at lansangan
   Maputik ang daan tungo sa dampang tahanan.

(Chord pattern)
   May mga haring walang kapangyarihan
   Meron ding alipin na mas malaya pa sa karamihan
   May mga sundalo na sarili ang kalaban
   Ay may pinapaslang na nabubuhay nang walang hanggan.

Repeat Chorus

Ad lib: D-C-G--; (4x)

   (Chord pattern)
   May kaliwa't may kanan sa ating lipunan
   Patuloy ang pagtutunggali, patuloy ang paglalaban
   Pumanig ka, pumanig ka, huwag nang ipagpaliban pa
   Ang di makapagpasiya ay maiipit sa gitna.

Filler: D-C-G--

(Chord pattern)
   Bulok na ang haligi ng ating lipunan
   Matibay ang pananalig na ito'y palitan
   Suriin mong mabuti ang iyong paninindigan
   Pagkat magkabilaan ang mundo.

Repeat Chorus

Filler: D-C-G--; (2x)

matutuwa ako, pag isang American Idol contestant ay kakanta ng isang Ayala song/ cynthia alexander. hehehe. asteeg yun diba?

1-2-3... ayyyy....

pano kaya kung sa lahat ng picture mo, ganto no? ang ganda ng view, shempre sobrang dapat maaayos ka rin sa litrato... tas NAKAPIKIT KA!!!

pano kung isa nalang ang shot na natitira sa film ng camera mo... o isa nalang ang space sa memory card mo.. at talagang ibibigay mo ang the best na matinding ngiti....

e wrong timing naman ang 'click' ng camera...ay good luck!



***hahaha... so etong picture naman na ito ay nakuha sa ... hindi ko matandaan... basta sa isang bayan bago mag vigan... siguro... (matagal na akong hindi magaling sa geography e... at hindi ako machagang mag google earth parang si ate rochie.)

per maganda talaga sa lugar na ito... sariwa ang hangin at hindi nakakapaso ang sikat ng araw. balang araw abbalik ako dito at tutuloy na ako sa pagudpod. beach...

sarap mag beach ngayon. pano sobrang init!!!! soooobrang init!

they look alike, don't they? gorgeous! :)

he's just not into you

the movie was just hilarious! i love! it's not a typical chic flick. very much for single women out there. and for men too. :) surely, i'll get my own of copy of this movie. :)

bad me.

i'm obnoxious, arrogant, sarcastic... you name it...

my friends know that when i show this side of mine, i usually make a joke.

i forgot. those who aren't my friends take this seriously. i should be more careful.

i don't want angry people on my list.

jollibee loves Mcdo???

this is hilarious! LOL!

petchai... stop it!!!

ok. there's something about twilight i really hate. im not trying to annoy anyone, but i just hate it.. soorry, stephany meyer..

im not into mushy, cheesy stuff.

but hey.. look... on the photo, i was imitating one of the scenes in that *** movie.. hahaha.

i love the poses... i hate the movie...

Last day in OR

these pictures were taken during our second day of duty. there were not too much cases so we stayed in the CS room and killed time by playing killer killer. i never new that game till we played it. hrmm. i wish i could down load the pictures i got from my phone.

will miss OR.

see our uniforms. funny one patient asked..."bakit may mga faith healer dito???"... hahahaha!!!!

another pic of ours slacking on the floor. that slippers aint mine!!!

nice. it's better if the bird is clearer than the background

autumn?

these flowers are nice!

john from Ukraine - the photographer

I had a new friend today. he's name is John and he's Ukrainian. it was my first time to have spoken with a person from that country. anyway, he showed me some of his photographs. he said he's no photographer but his pictures were fine.. here are some of what he sent me: (see above pictures.

(i dont understand why the txt above is colored blue!)

i have to sleep now. early class at 8am. geez...

Operation Room Finale

My OR experience was so far the best I've had in my nursing education. that's why i'm pretty sad because tonight was our last duty in the OR. oh well... my regret: when i scrubbed in for a minor surgery, the only thing i did was gave a sponge to a doctor... that's it! too bad, i was quite excited for it (but anxious at the same time). major surgery: i only retracted the bladder retractor.... sighs... i wish i had the experience of assisting in actual, giving out instrument. anyway, well be having our duties back in OR nxt school year.

it was my 1st time to observe a Uterine hysterectomy procedure. the uterus and cervix was actually out if the body! it's really tiny! you'd think how can a baby fit in such a small space.

the minor procedure was an internal bleeding in the knee. the patient seemed to be in pain inspite of the general anesthesia. the doctor applied a cylindrical mold after the procedure.

after the surgeries, we had our return demonstration for scrubbing, gowning and gloving. mr. tan was our CI. he's a fun teacher. i really apprecieate that he handled our class. ms. aala was the greatest. :)

after that, well, we all played pinoy henyo. haha. killed time. had fun.... our new funny word... "beyjtabols".... hahahaah!!!!!

hyperacidity

i knew it! milk increases the acidity on the stomach, that's why my stomach hurt 2 days ago!!!

http://www.articlesbase.com/health-articles/treating-hyperacidity-340353.html

the beach

ngayon ko lang napansin. parang ngayon lang umulan ulit. parang buong dec hindi umulan... hrmmm... anyway...

napanood ko yung movie 'the BEACH'. ang ganda ng movie! pati yung tanawin ang ganda... parang gusto ko tuloy mag bakasyon sa beach at mag swimming. yung story ang maganda... i can relate.. sort of...

sabi sa storya, what would it take for you to maintain your own, selfsh happiness? kung baga, dahil selfish ka, may masasamang bagay nang nanyayari para ma-maintain lang ang happiness mo. parang gobyerno, nangongorakot sila ng sobra para dumami ang pera nila.. mas marami silang pambili ng droga.. etc... saklap no?

ganda ng movie. pogi pa si leonardo di caprio nito e. di tulad ngayon. pangit na!

walang pasok ngaun so gumawa lang ako ng thesis.. actually neron lang akong dinagdag. ang tagal ko nga bago ko madagdagan e. sana maging mabilis naman akong gumawa ng kahit ano... pag nurse na ako, hindi pwedeng bagal bagal ako. darn... ok sig hanggang dito muna ako. magaral ako ulit.

Operating ROOM. waaah!!!

when i saw our sched for the operating room, i got a bit anxious. OR means a lot of blood, a lot of responsiblity and a lot of courage to face these. i think i'm not that afraid to see soo much blood now compared before. i remember, in manila medical center, there was a room (which i thought was the CR) which has this huge balde full of BLOOD! i dont know why i remember that but i was really afraid to have caught the sight of it. i was even more afraid of blood when i was much younger (maybe around 3 y/o)... i was sooooo darn scared of the bloody Jesus in any of the churches we went to. i just realized it was fake when i reached 4 y/o...

earlier today, we handled a case; oopherectomy.. one ovary was removed because of the cyst. it was not a bloody operation. but the ovary was huge! i wish our operating room is like the one in grey's anatomy. the theater would be on a pit so that all of us can watch comfortably in glassed observation room. that would be nicer.

there was also a CS delivery. i t was amazing! amazing how a person comes out of someone's womb. simply amazing... :)

i dunno yet what's instore for us tomorrow.. come what may...

p.s i was supposed to have a case already. but my case was taken by the 4th year,. :( bleh

new adventure in my nursing education

Our group had a one- week duty in National Center for Mental Health. the picture at the right is the statue of Sisa, the symbol of mental illness in the Philippines... funny, MOST people think it's Mama Mary... :) LOL.

the experience in the institution was great! i appreciated the role of nursing in such an institution... made me feel better to have seen that field of nursing. it made me feel that nursing is really a profession... in the ward, learning is too limited and it makes you feel just like a helper. as in sunudsunuran lang. so there.. haha. it was a fun experience, but challenging as well.... waking up really really early was a challenge.. i was late once. ate aimee waw really pissed with me.. haha. sorry naman..

ok, so what did i learn? now, i know what a mental insitution looks like.. the set up and everything... also i was able to find out how a mentally ill person acts, how they look like... how to deal with them... how to get through to them, specially those apathetic type. i want to describe some of the patients im really fond of... no pictures tho coz we were not allowed to take them..

at first, i didn't know how to address them... lolo, tatay, manong, mang, sir.... finally, i stuck with 'mang **'

Mang Julio - he was my patient. diagnosed with schizophrenia: unspecified. i really think he can go out from the institution. he has minimal to none EPS and he participated in all the activities that we have prepared. he could be functional in the real world.. nakakatawa. whenever he speaks, he addresses himself as 'ME'... he sound like a text message... example: 'malungkot ME dito... hindi man makalabas..' haha

Mang Jaime - he's the blind man romel assisted. there's nothing he liked doing but making bets in sabongs. he grew blind i think in NCMH due to his developing cataracts. he doesnt seem to be mentally ill, actually. or maybe he is.. he likes to spell a lot (mentioned he read inquirer everyday before).. he likes singing to... the song he sanh still keeps ringing in my ear, seriously! there was this funny incident.

SN: mang rolando ano po ba yang dino drawing ninyo?
Mang Jaime: 'panigurado, prutas nanaman yan!'

* sabay hirit ni mang jaime, hindi naman nakakakita!!! HAHAHAHA!!!! nako, will never forget this hahaha!!!! LOL...

Mang Eduardo - diagnosed as schizphrenic: apathetic type. normally just stares blankly in space with absolutely no facial expression in his face. he's chubby and looks like a friend of mine back in college. ahahaha... ok.. he was not my patient but i kept observing him with andrew (the SN who handled him) because i wanted to see if the therapeutic comm therapy will take effect on his apathetic state. and it did! it was fulfilling to have seen the change. one scenario i wont forget:

Mang Eduardo ate the siopao..... mang eduardo can't help but smile... it was a lengthy smile...

geez, i should've had a photo of it.. really touching!

Mang Rolando - ate aimee's patient. i dunno his story but i know he's bading. diagnosis is unknown coz ate aimee was unable to scan his chart properly. he's the type of patient who never stops what he's doing unless you tell him to stop. he likes flowers with vibrant colors... and fruits too... he has EPS. likes reading texts in small packages like the REXONA. hehe...

there are other patients we missed handling coz we handle one patient per student.

the environment is really nice. lot's of trees. felt like i was in UP LB.. *sighs*

i wish we could go back there. at least another week.

bakasyon en grande.

me with mom and dad... laki chan ko noh? from 90 plus pounds to 110 lbs! san ka pa???!

mirienda/ lunch at shakey's. walang ganto sa states daw.

ang gaan ni donnel dito!!! huwaw!!!

playing with tita tessies new mac

one of my good shots daws.. using biboy's telephoto lens

tagal tagal kong hindi nakasulat nanaman dito. nakaraan na ang pasko at bagong taon, dumating at umalis na sila momi, dadi at biboy, hindi pa ako nakapagsulat. dami kasing nanyari sa bakasyon. mostly puro kain lang naman ang ginawa namin. at maglinis ng bahay... si momi at dadi parang hindi galing america. parang ganun parin sila. hehe. hindi naman mashado ang bago agn ichura nila... si biboy ang mejo nag iba.

sila ate gigi dumating din. parang si sharon cuneta si ate gigi at si kya merlin, ang kenkoy! kakatuwa talaga si matthew and patrick... saglit na panahon lang parang sobrang close na close na kami kaagad... niyayaya na nga akong dumalaw sa states e. haha tuwa! naghiking at nag puntas a bahay ni paciano (nacreep out si matthew, haha) at nag skating kami... si matthew nag pakitang gilas mag trumpet.. at nagtambol kami...

si donnell ang laki! si joyce din. ang galing nila magtagalog. dati hindi talaga sila nagsasalita ng tagalog.. :) si donnell mejo di ko nakasama mashado. saglit lang sobra. mas ok shang kausap pag lasing kasi makulit. haha.

si tita baby at tito donnie ganun parin... hindi naman nagbabago ang mga ichura nila. ganun parin...

si kya rendo ang tumaba.. mejo mapayat pa sha bago umalis e,.. ngayon malaking tao na sha. ngayon ko lang nakita si ate lory... mukhang mabait naman sha.... may jet log lang... dito pa sila.... most of them nakabalik na ng US.,..

haaay... yung ibang pangyayari mejo nakalimutan ko... ano ba yan... pero masarap talagang kumain!!!! favorite part ng bakasyon ko, nuong dumating sila momi at dadi... kahit linis sila ng linis, ok na ok naman ang mga umaga namin... ang sarap ng handa ni dadi na breakfast.... tipong pag gising ko meron nang nakahain! haaay, miss ko na nga kaagad e.... ngayon tahimik na kaagad ang bahay...

onga pala, part din nung bakasyon, nag photoshooting kami sa falls. ang sarap gamitin nung camera ni biboy. ang ganda nung lens... hrmmp... si biboy, badtrip parin ata saakin kasi nanakaw yung blackberry na binigay nya saakin.. oh well... :(

pero sa ngayon ayos lang na hindi muna ako magcamera. hiram muna ako ke ate rochie. tas iniwan naman sakin ni daddy yung cybershot nya saakin... daddy, salamat!!! yey! pero shempre mas limited ang artistry pero, ayus na... for memorie' sake... actually, nuong una akong nagka camera (yung de-film pa), purpose ko ay para ma freeze yung memories/ kodak moments. naks... ohwell...

meron akong mga kuha na gusto ko rin. galing ko kumuha ng candid daw, sabi ng pinsan ko. naks.. ayos ah... :)

sana umuwi ulit ang mga balik bayan.

well ngayon back to school... dapat magaral naako ng masinsinan at i have to reallyt make it in nursing... so help me God.. thanks!

yield?

sabi ni ert... yield daw... ok sige.. YIELD! merry xmas!

pathophysiology of badtrip

stimulus... badtrip on frontal lobe... sympathetic NS... loss of appetite...

i just made this up. it's christmas day and i feel awful. 1stly, i dont feel like it's christmas... the celebration felt artificial. my brother, who came back from the states...i dont feel his presence much. my sister, well we had a bit of a misunderstading coz she cant handle constructive criticism... so, i'm experiencing a dose of badtrip... i dunno what's going to happen the next few days. maybe my sister would still be mad at me. my parents... they'll be coming home... without my bagels.. huhu.. :(

great huh? sucks...

BUT~~!!! like what my cousin said, it's christmas. bawal asar...

panaginip and random thoughts

ang sama ang panaginip ko. pinagalitan daw si ate ni momi at dadi sa internet! inaaaay....

pero meron din naman nakakatawa. yung bagong friend namin (thru ate maddie meron), meron daw fan club at ang girlfriend nya ang leader... tas may mga banners silang ginawa at ang mga nakasulat, 'sweldon' ----> e hindi naman ito ang pangalan nya. hahaha!

ok, ngayong araw nato hindi ko pa alam ang gagawin ko... pero ito yung plan

1. punta ng LB para kunin ang bagong ATM ko
2. punta as chinabank makati para icheck ang kaperahan ko
3. sana may makipagkita saaking kaibigan para celebrate kami ng christmas...

ingit naman ako... si ate at bunso meron na silang mga individual christmas parties with friends... ako wala pa. wala pa kasing nagyayaya e. well... maghahanap talaga ako ng sarili kong party. :) kaso nga lang ang mga madadaling yayain nasa province. oh well... anyway, life goes on .

mashadong maligaya

mashadong maligaya ako kagabi dahil sobrang nakakatawa ang mga kaklase ko. christmas party namin kahapon at walang pakundangang nagpakitang gilas ang mga bata sa pagsayaw at pagkanta. naubos ang boses ko sa katatawa at pagkanta sa videoke. sumiklab pa ang enerhiya ko sa pagsayaw dahil sa ilang beses naming pagppractice ng sayaw.

sa sobrang ligaya ko, e ngayon wala na tuloy ako sa mood. tas masakit pa ang chan ko. sana hindi ako nagkaron ng bacterial infection sa kinain kong isaw at ilagn paglagok ng tubig sa swimming pool.

ito nanaman.

... nakahain ang mga gamit namin sa lamesa. nakabalandrang mga kagamitan. cellphone, wallet, camera.... mga papel, nagkalat. mga libro, lahat... nasa lamesa lahat ng mga importanteng gamit... :(

walang hudyat.. hindi tumahol ang mga pusa... sumayaw paloob ang mga sakim.

...

kakawalang gana.

badtrip.

hrmmm

hehe... pwede!

Death and Butterflies

"whoa!" ang gulat ko sa paroparong biglang lumipad sa harapan ko. ang pakpak nya ay kulay brown na may stripes na puti at konting polkadots na brown din.

pag merong namatay o mamamatay palang, nakakita ako ng mga paro parong ganto.

totoo kya na ang mga hayop na ito ay nagdadala ng kaluluwang namayapa na?

hrmmm.

kuya norli, rest in peace.

RIP MICHAEL CRICHTON

"patay na si michael crichton!!!"... ang una kong reaksyon sa pagkakabasa ko sa blog ni bulitas (http://bulitas.tk/) ... ay nakakalungkot naman! isa pa naman sha sa mga paborito kong mga tao. kamamatay lang nya 2 araw na ang nakalipas. :(

RIP, doc.

it's 3:37 am and here i am still blogging. i don't quite spend my time doing this unlike before but i decided to type in my thought herer once in a while. im fond of reading my own written thoughts anyway.

so how was my day? same old, same old. we again had our hospital duty today. i was assigned to a 64 y/o male patient with HASCVD, unable to move the upper and lower right extremities and unable to speak but able to communicate with sign language. his vital signs were already stable and was able to go home earlier today. i handled him for 2 consective days.

the patient was funny. hahaha. not a mocking insulting way.. but just funny.

me: 'lolo, nilalamig po ba kayo?'

(lolo: sign language, with blank staring eyes yet with a smiling face)

lola: 'gusto nya ikaw ang mag kumot sa kanya'

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lola: (telling me) kunwari kunin mo yung 500 pesos nya...

me; lolo akin nalang itong pera nyo!

(lolo: tightens his grip on his money)...

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i remember oprah's guest, a famous neuro-anatomist (?) who was able to recover from a coma. from what i have remembered, she relayed her story when she was in a coma. she said during that time, people around her spoke like animals. she cant understand anyone. she cant even understand what she was saying. and she thought it was cool (since she was able to examine herslf)... weird woman!

maybe there's still hope for my patient to speak. of course the doctors will tell the patients the worse thing that may happen. but only time can tell the level of recovery of the patient. i just hope for the best for lolo.
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photography sessions

well, today, my cousin, sister, my cousin's friend and I wandered around manila to have photo shooting... all 3 of them were using DSLR! i envy them sooo much since i was using a crummy old digital camera (no offense). i didn't appreciate the photos i took. but, well, next time, i'll bring my sony digital still camera to get nicer pictures. i'll just post here some of the 'best pictures' i took from the photo session.

sooo disappointing...

(maybe it's not the camera... maybe it's me who needs practice. haha.. what heck.)

ayan... picture namin kamina! dalawang litrong tubig ang natanggal sa baga ng aking kaibigan. kulay brown, parang iced tea. hindi talaga natin tiyak kung ano ang manyayari saatin sa mundong ito kahit gaano pa tayo kaingat sa ating sarili. noh? haaay. nakakalungkot lang. kanina namimilipit sha sa sakit pagkatapos operahan. hindi sha makasandal dahil may tubong nakasaksak sa kanyang lower chest area sa right side. hindi patalaga tiyak kung ano ang tunay nyang sakit.

ganun pa man, nakakaluwag ng pakiramdam na makitang hindi malubha ang kalagayan nya. nakakatawa at nakakapag salita sha... "tres tres" ang favorite word nya e. haha. na sstress na sha sa kaka tres tres ng mga doctor.

natutuwa rin ako dahil ok ang napangasawa nya. at ok ang buong pamilya! thank you talaga Lord! dahil talagang malaking challenge ito.

sana lang maging ok na sha sa lalong madaling panahon dahil nag hinhintay ang kanyang baby sa singapore...

pagaling ka na mygz para mag ggirly nights tayo ulit! :)

'is the character fictional or real?' jr asked me after reading the blog i just typed earlier. i said 'semi.'... 'totoo bang nanyari to?'... 'oo, totoong nanyari yan.. saakin.'... nyeeh. that was the first. i've never spoken about the incident to anyone, even to ert or mygz. it was not a big deal. yet quite a significant event since that does not happen very often... (at least for me).

i felt ashamed when i told my friend, jr, about it coz im not the type who blahs about that kind of stuff. i guess i was over-thinking if the 'love concept' had gone through my system in anyway. falling in love, falling out of it and moving on were some of the topics and I CANT CONTRIBUTE! i'm not wishing to have a broken relationship but i'm just bored of saying, "ah, wala parin hanggang ngayon". haha. parang ok. there's nothing new about me...

this friend of mine may think im pathetic. haha.. buti nalang change topic kaagad! whew!

(note: hoi, im not desperate! reader... you might think i am... but im not. i just have this normal reactions during social gatherings. ok? )

ok.. so before i lay myself to sleep, (so early in the morning now!), let me just share to you what happened today...

i came late to our PS41 get together. i came waaaay past the call time... hehe. just made a few alibis. the real reason why i was late: i had to remove all the bushy hairs on my legs so that i could wear my favorite skirt! haha! pants.. i didnt want to wear pants coz the climate was too warm...

Little Italy Avenidos was the resto we went to. the food was great... the laugh trip was great... people around me were great. great! haha! I missed them, really. we found ourselves wearing the same shirt color.. black . parang may lamay... (except chito).. so as usual, kamustahan, laugh trip about: the past experiences on the floor; me, being koripot; chito's hilarious face, frankie's highfaluting tagalog; jr's comments and the chito and karen past warfare. claire was having some issues with her ex bf, so we also talked about that.

after the food trip. we went to G4 to check movies. we lost interest in watching any film and got into taking pictures in every place we went to: in the walk ways of glorietta, the highschool musical life-size card boards, etc etc etc.

we got tired walking and laughing so we went to starbucks to have coffee/ tea... and to take more pictures. really had a good laugh and a good reminiscing. somehow, i miss the fun, lively call center lifestyle, tho i hate working in the wee hours of the morning (like im doing now!)..

and the jollibee days! Geez.. how i miss the moments we laugh about our calls, the customers, people at the floor. hahaha.

this picture was taken in the PS makati elevator: apol, kaye, me, kaka, chito, claire, jr. i think it was taken in 2006 or 2007.

and here we are now. :)

i tore my favorite skirt in the bus. hate it!

piggyback ride

pagnapapadaan ako sa may harap ng isang hotel patungo sa MRT, napapakanta ako ng..

i remember
you walkin in the rain
no umbrella with your arms
around me
how can i forget
that was the last time...
isa saw you...

waiting for a taxi
getting on without me
and your sorry
how can i forget
that was the last time
i saw you

blah blah blah...

parang walang sense yung kanta kasi hindi ko alam ang buong lyrics....
nagiging sentimental lang bigla... kasi ang weird nuong panahon nayon... masaya pero weird...

natandaan ko tuloy si tim at tam nuong nag 'date sila'. si tim yung lalaki... si tam yung babae... si tam hindi talaga sha marunong makipag date...

int. sa chowking ng bandang alas quatro ng hapon. nakapila si tim at tam para bumili ng halo halo...

si tim ang unang nakapagorder sunod si tam...
bumubunot ng ng wallet si tim ng pera mula sa kanyang wallet...

tam: hindi, wag na, ako nalang. treat kita. (smiling face pa. nagniningning ang mga mata sa kilig)

utak ni tam: huh? tama ba ting ginagawa ko? dapat ang lalaki ang nang lilibre ah! hrmmm... pero sa bagay, less fortunate naman sha kaya, sige go lang...

hayun. masayang nag kwentuhan si tim at tam. nagkakilala sila ng masmalalim... pero mejo lang... nakangiting kumain ng malinamnam na halohalo si tim at si tam....

si tam, iniisip parin nya kung tama ang nanyari sa date nila... hrmmm

ito isa pang situation...

pagkatapos nila manood ng isang poetry reading sa picc, sinamahan ni tim si tam sa may MRT station... alas diyes ng ng gabi at umaambon... nakabukas ang mga poste ng dilaw na ilaw na nakahanay sa ayala ave...

tim: halika... kargahin kita! (habang pumopormang lumuhod para i piggy back ride si tam)

kilig si tam!!! PERO...

utak ni tam: sh*t! baka mafeel nya yung boobs ko.. parang ang bastos ko naman mag isip... teka...

tam: ah eh... wag na! mabigat ako! at chaka tusoktusok... ikaw nalang ang bubuhatin ko. :)

utak ni tam: p*tch* wrong move nanaman ata... oops..

tim: uhhh... osige...

hayun, nag piggyback ride na silang dalawa.. Binuhat na ni tam si tim.

so, ayan ang isang parte ng scenario ni tim at tam sa kanilang love story... rather... MU story... kasi never naman naging sila.

ayan... galing no? nakagawa ako ng MU story. hahaha. :)

WALA ka sa LOLO ko!

"yung lolo ko... ano yung lolo.. ko kasi .. ano.... (blah) (blah)"...sabi nung tambay sa kanto namin. parang gusto kong sumabat, "ano ba! wala na ang punchline mo... wag ka na mag joke!!!" .. pero shempre shut up nalang ako kasi baka ako sundan..

haha, nakakatawa!

baygon at lysol

ang sakit ng ilong ko. bumili ako ng baygon at ng lysol kahapon . kanina, mi-nasacre ko ang mga ipis na naninirahan sa cabinet sa ilalim ng lababo namin. ang dami nila!!!! maliliit lang sila. meron konting malalaki. yuck. may mga small cracks kasi sa ding ding kaya doin sila nagsisitago.... misyon kong mawala na ang pugad nila sa loob ng bahay namin. kaya nga bibili sana ako ng basurahan na sobrang laki at may takip para araw araw akong mag tatapon sa labas... parang nalalasahan ko yung baygon. tas mejo hinika ako.. aynako. bukas meron ulit duty sa ospital. maaga nanaman! 6am. owell.

ang tataba ng anak ni merry... ang liwanag lang ng pagkakuha ko. hehe. cute no?

clean sheets :)

i changed our beddings today!!! feels clean again. i just wish the vacuum cleaner is working. the bedbugs are killing me.

there are some entries that i want to share here than my other more public blog. i guess this blog is much private than other 1. :) i was speaking with fatima earlier and sharing to her my imaginations. hahahaha. it's quite interesting so i decided to blog it.

i was imagining my life in the future... this is my dream house. a very relaxing place. quiet.. with wonderful neighbors, nice weather... when i have free time, i'll spend time drinking lemonade in the porch, reading a nice, feel good book. :)

Now, let me give you a tour inside my beautiful home...

Welcome to my cozy little bedroom. :) i love the big windows and the color of the walls... see those lamps? they're my night lights. i love to read before i sleep so they'll be really useful.

this is my lovely kitchen. i loooove cooking. i can cook pasta all day!!! there's an oven, too. so i can bake whatever i want!

and that's my living room. :)

this is my dining room. i looove the really big glass windows. it's like dining oudoors. :)

Friends Going away

my closests friends are leaving the country!!! yesterday, ert and i went to glorietta. she'll be going to indonesia next week... im going to miss her. mygz, of course has been in singapore for a long time now.. :) oh well... it's nice being at the prime of your life. 25 years old... the year of being 25 is i guess the time when you really reach the dreams you really love.... i just got delayed. haha... oh well.

hrmmm.... i have decided. i will leave my teeth alone... i'll just do what the doctors say about it... if they find nothing, fine. live it that way. i just hope that i'll have 1 doctor. i dont want to change doctors anymore!

A new website

as you can see, my profile has changed! well, that's actually for my new site. cant fuigure out how to separate the two. but that's fine... :)

Get Extra Cash Online

i've been going through the internet all day finding online jobs to have extra cash without being employed in a real company which will be more convinient for me since im still in college (2 years to go!)... i came across with this site http://www.emailcashpro.com/?r=nanaxiu.. it's pretty interesting coz if this thing works, i can get paid without lifting a finger. and without any cash outs! hrmmm.. well, i'll keep you posted with whatever happens. haha.

feeling ko may masamang manyayari sakin. sana hindi naman ako mamatay. ewan ang weird... sana walang manyari sa kahit kanino. ay nako

random

this is one of the newbies. was born late jan 2008. cute, eh? :) that's my leg. haha.

this was Coogee before he died. he looks ok in the pic, right? as if he's just sleeping. most of the cats that we had who died looked terrible. Got really sad when he died. he was a fighter! he was the biggest cat we ever had. :( oh well...

he's the manager of the store shabu shabu resto in atc. he reminds me of Gyun Yoo of the koreanovela in channel 7. *hihi pogi!*

i can't describe the feeling of my k-9. it's a bit sensitive, but not too much and it's kinda tender. i dunno. i went to my makati dentist yesterday and he made me mouth guards, upper and lower. that's 5 gran! but i dont mind really. well, i asked him if i need braces. he said my teeth look fine. so that means i dont need it. i dunno, i just want to resolve this ugly experience of mine. LADIES AND GENTS, BOYS AND GIRLS, take care of your teeth!!!! dont get me wrong, i brush my teeth all the time. it just never occured to me that clenching and grinding at night while sleeping really can damage your teeth no matter how strong you think it is.

i never thought i had teeth problems. geez...

anyway, this morning, we had our Intramuscular injection demo. my professor gave me a 90% grade. that's good enough. knowing her, she never gives high marks. the return demo was smooth, though my hands were a bit shaky.

my partner hurt me. i know that distilled h2o is really painful, but the pain was prolonged because she got rattled when she got criticized by the professor. i got really nervous because my classmates got rattled as well when they saw the hub filled with blood. the needle went in different angles which tore my muscle tissues.... im having anxiety problems this past month, so when i heard them almost yelling at my partner, i felt like fainting... my other classmates said i was really pale. but see, that's fine. we are in school to learn... good thing, im not an angry person... my arm feels a little sore but, it's ok now.

my partner cried! haha. i quite know how she was feeling. like everyone was watching, thinking bad stuff about you.... tsk tsk... she'll get over it.

my head hurts already. i've been watching this new korean telenovela on dvd. it's called 'Coffee Prince'.. Koreans are really known for their cuteness and silliness.

Christmas break is almost over for me. Classes starts on Jan. 7. Geez, I haven't done much. I didn't go on a trip or anything... but ate rochie and i went to the science discovery center in MOA. it's an amusement park full of science in it.. haha... (duh..haha)... We had picture takings, just the two of us.. i wish our cousins would have come. i wish people in the states were here. it would've been fun. but it was fun with my sister.

Coogee.. i think he feels much better now. but he still can' walk straight. poor little cat... his hind legs are all bloody and swollen... we thought of putting him in a wheel chair for disabled cats...

Pan and Laira.. the twins, they're getting bigger and bigger. they are much more sociable than before. Mary and Meow2x are doing ok too... they're the mother of the house.

before the classes start, i'll try to go out more.. im becoming a zombie already.

NEW YEAR!!! (weeeh to 2008)

hello folks!!! welcome to the year 2008.. it's January 1 and again, it's a start of a new beginning. :) how do we start the year though? hrmmm, let's reflect on that.....

1. clean the house of course
2. have my RLQ checked by a doctor (hope im not dying)
3. call the violin teacher... i need to learn something i really love
4. know by heart the nursing processes.. read the books... haha
5. Do something nice...
6. do something new
7. travel around the philippines... start near... then far...
8. reconnect with OLD FRIENDS.... Relatives... Family
9. meet new people!!!

haaay... what's in store fo me this 2008...? well, i hope, something exciting! something really new!

2008

Ang bilis ng panahon. 2008 na!

Ang gulogulo sa Pakistan. Patayan sila ng patayan. Pinatay nila si Benazir Bhutto... tsk tsk.... hrmmm, ang pangit ng kabaong nya. ganun ba talaga, kahon lang?

:(

Akala ako makaka-pag- capping ako ngayung sem na 'to. Kasama na nga ako sa mga rehearsals, yun pala baka next year... huhuhu... nakakalungkot. mamaya kakausapin ako ni dean alpay... :(

tsssk.... ang luwag ng sched ko this sem. parang hindi ako sanay... ayoko naman magreklamo kasi next sem sobrang magiging busy na ako. sana kasi take-all-the-subjects you want dito sa CDH.... sana ni-credit nalang nila yung mga values ko.. pareho lang naman yun ng mga theology... hrmmm mejo iba pero same naman ang concept.

Cooking experiments

Gooey Green Pea Soup
inspired by nigella bites

2 mugs of frozen green peas
2 2/3 mugs of water
1 knorr cube (beef) or make vegetable broth
1/2 bar of mozzarella cheese

Procedure
1. boil green peas and knorr cube in water until it's soft
2. put mozzarella cheese, green peas and broth in a food processor or blender
3. blend it until it's gooey and green

enjoy it!

Coffee-berry Mousse
inspired by Nestle All-Purpose Cream's Mocha Magnifico

1 1/2mug of crumbed graham crackers
whole graham crackers
1/2 cup melted butter
2 boxes of All purpose cream
1/4 condensed milk
1 glass of fresh milk
slices of strawberry
1 tbsp instant coffee

Graham crust
1. mix the crumbed graham crackers and butter well
2. place it in rectangular container (like the microwavable containers) and press it tightly to make a crust
3. cover the crust with a wax paper or plastic wrap, put a heavy object it it (canned food perhaps), and leave it to cool in the frige for 30 mins to 1 hr.

Mousse (Batter)
1. mix the all purpose cream, condensed milk and coffee together. make sure there are no lumps
2. add more condensed milk should you want it sweeter

The whole thing
1. take out the crust from the frige
2. top the batter in the crust and spread it out.
3. put the sliced straberry on top of the batter
4. dip the whole graham cracker in the fresh milk until it's quite soft (but still firm) . Then put it on top of the batter and the strawberry
5. do the same procedure again to make layers of the batter and the strawberry
6. place in the frige for 1 hr.

it's ready to serve! enjoy!!! :)

searching

ang tagal narin ng blog nato! grabe. imagine noong 2004 pa. e pano kaya kung hindi nabura yung blog-city ko, relic na yung mga mga nasulat kong yun? hahaha.. pano ang naka-inspire saakin na magsulat noon ay si chinito_pogito... wala narin shang blog ngayun dahil mashado nang laganap ang pagbblog... jologs na kung baga... pero para saakin depende parin naman... ang mga taong nagbblog sa friendster o sa multiply lang naman ang natuturingang jologs.. hehe,, no offense sa mga tao may friendster at multiply dahil ako meron ding mga accts na ganun... tho minsan lang ako magsulat ngayun.... sa totoo lang nagbblog parin naman ako pero hindi na mashado online... mas madalas na sa papel... old style.
anywei, nagpapasalamat din naman ako sa mga online networking dahil sa pamamagitan nito ay nakakasagap parin ako ng mga balita mula sa outside world... lalo na ngayun wala akong social life.... kanina nga, nakita ko ang profile ni tristan bael sa friendster... hommies na sha ngayun... iba talaga pag nagiging laking america ang mga tao.... kaklase ko sha nung elementary, 3rd grade yata... then nagtungo sha sa australia (?) . then back to the phils at naging classmate sa sci-tech... matangkad ang gwapo noon. hindi naman mashado nagbago ang mukha nya. at ganun parin ang ichura ng kanyang kuko sa daliri.. ganun parin pero mas nagmature nga lang. meron narin shang kasintahan ngayun... haha.. natatandaan ko noong mga panahong pinagpapantashahan no mex yung lalaking yun. hihihi... ngayun very american na ang aura nya.... napapansin ko, si biboy, malapit narin maging ganun! very western...

hrmmm... naisip ko lang... pag may mga klasmate kaya ako na makita ang profile ko, hindi kaya magbabago ang impression nila sakin? hindi naman ang ang pinakasikat sa klase... ang loser nga ng dating ko nun e... batang bato na walang pakialam sa mundo... pero shempre, habang dumadaan ang panahon, mas nagkakaroon ka ng muwang sa mundong pumapaligid sayu, at binagago ka nito... hinuhubog... ganun ang nangyari saakin... hrmmm.... napapaisip lang... minsan gusto ko sila makita ulit... mga kaklase ko noon.... gusto ko rin makasalamuha at kamustahin ang 'not so popular' kids noon... balita ko nga successful na sila ngayun, katulad ni van... biruin mo nga naman, ngayun, accountant na sha sa isang bangko...(nabalitaan ko kay kuya nino na schoolmate ko pala ngayun sa cdh)... si kuya nino, matatapos na sa kurso nya... magiging nurse na sha at mangignibang bansa narin... nakakatuwa rin. :) gusto ko malaman ang storya nilang lahat!

at sha nga pala, sila emem, ang bestfriend ko nung hs, nakatira na sa magandang bahay ngayun! parang ayala alabang.. ang daming nagbago! daming nagimprove sa buhay ng mga tao. si cel, happy na sa pamilya nya. si vernon, asa singapore at nagaaral, at si lala, may boypren na! oha!

may ni reresearch pa akong isang naging classmate, pero wala, hindi ko makita.

calambeno

i live in calamba, laguna, where the great jose rizal once lived. i love it here. no pollution, there's fresh air, a lot of trees... but for some reason, i dont seem to get along with people in laguna... i dont know why!

number 0480 B

election day.

i wore my yellow vigan shirt and my blue board shorts today. i brought my house keys, my voter's id, and the list of people who i shall be voting... my sister and i then drove off to the school where it will take place.

crowded, the street was! but it was not that stressful...

what stresses me out is that i lost my voter's id! i feel soo bad earlier. i should've looked for it. :( i didnt realize my pocket has a hole in it. darn.

tsk,.

EVAN ALMIGHTY'S WAPAK!

Wow! nagbblog nanaman ako... kelangan lang ng drainage ng overflowing random thoughts. kulang na kasi sa social life. hahaha. anywei... nakapanood ako ng Evan Almighty at totoo.... hindi binibigay saatin ang lahat ng gusto natin pero binibigyan tayo ng oportunidad na makuha o makamit ang gusto natin.

isang araw... 3 years ago (more or less)... may naiisip akong tao... ang pangalan nya ay joseph olivar.... si joseph olivar na naging kaklase ko sa christian school international nuong 1st and 2nd quarter ng highschool... mukhang mabait at talentado din. (maypagka autistic, dahil madalas shang pumunta sa isang sulok para mag guitara).. ang da best pa don, mukhang hindi nya napansin ang kadiring mga allergy ko noon... simpleng 'hi' 'hello', nakatutuwang pakinggan mula sa kanya.

...3 years ago... parang mantra kong sinasabi sa sarili na gusto ko shang makita ulit... HAPON... sa tapat ng starbuck 6750, nakakita ako ng isang lalaki na may mahabang, kulot na buhok... sabi ng utak ko,'KAMUKHA NYA!!!... baka SHA NGA YUN!!!'

=sigh= ito ang mga pagkakataong tinukoy ko kanina.... kung sinabi kong, 'joseph???' or.. 'do i know you from somewhere?'.. edi sana nagkatutuo na sana ang munting hiling ko... sayang ang oportunidad...

ngayun, minamantrahan ko ulit.

sheesh... eto pa...

nung banda banda pa kami ng BP nuon, nakakasalamuha namin ang mga mejo sikat... hindi... mga sikat talagang mga banda banda... kasama dito ang rivermaya.... sa mga music festival tulad ng fete delamusique, nakakajamming namin sila.... jologs mang pakinggan pero parang may pagtingin ako sa isang miyembro doon na nagngangalang japs (bahista)... (ng rivermaya a... hindi yung kabanda ko)...kanina lang nabasa ko na may bagong chikiting na vocalist ang rivermaya.... shempre ako naman si research sa internet... ng nakita ako ang friendster at myspace ni japs... sabi ko, 'ay, parang normal na tao pala sha'... di ko naman sinasabi na abnormal sha pero, kung baga, ang impression ko, hindi sha rockstar maniac ... anywei, sana nuong, rockstar pa ako (yak as if) e nakausap ko man lang sha... arrrgh... nakakautal kasi pagkumakausap ka ng idol mo o kahit na sinong sikat na tao.

mahiyain.. torpe... pweh!

nung una ko makita si japs... MTV music tour, sponsored ng pepsi... naka braided pigtails sha... cute cute nya nun... yeehee!

moral lesson: tulad nga ng sabi ni mygz, 'SEIZE THE DAY!'

p.s never akong naging rockstar... well... mejo lang... hindi joke lang.. wink wink.

i should get out

seriously, i've got to get out of this place! sembreak will be over in a week... and here i am, loathing! doing nothing. i should've goe to the beach or something... +sigh+... i just miss the outdoors. :( just like what i always say... 'gusto kong mamundok!'.

ngayun, kasabihan nalang yan.

yikes.

im in a prone position, only my elbows are supporting my upper torso so that i can type... soo, what can i say. im bored to death. yes, i am! you know what i did today? i watched evan almighty (nicely done. very meaningful) and the zodiac (oh, it was indeed a looong movie) in my sister's laptop. i keep my YM open so that i could still get a glimpse of who are online just in case i need someone to talk to. seee.... im really bored...

i have sinned today (actually, it started yesterday)... i bought a small triangualar box of toblerone... the white one. i told my self i'll eat one piece ( 1 triangle) a day... guess what... i ate the whole thing!!! i wish i wont swell too much. it's a darn white chocolate...

i went to school yesterday, took my stuff from joanna, went to the registrar's office, asked something about getting my copy of grades... after that, i didnt know what to do, so i went to the book sale and looked for a cookcook called 'aut bee's mayberry cookbook'. i thought i'd get a copy with a lesser price. then, i thought of texting my good friend, connie. which i did. went at starbucks, chatted and we went around the mall, harrizon plaza. i havent been there for quite a time now...

haha. just want to share of what i did yesterday,,,

i have a tip for those people who would like to get thin... watch tv. forget food exists.... sleep... before you know it, you're as thin as a toothpick.. haha. just an idea.

gotta go for now. i promise, next time i write /type here, ill make sure it's something significant. coz this is not. haha.. :)

signing off.

i normally don't write in blogs that often. but, hey i have the time to do it today. 1st semester is over. after next week, school starts again. i'm kind of nervous coz i don't want to spend my second sem in EAC. that school has too much issues. and i dont feel safe in manila. im still weighing things.... i made some of options where to transfer (either in CDH or UMAK). UMAk has a good reputation re: BSN. they have this program called REGIS for second coursers...the thing is, it's too far away from home and it's complicated to go there. it look overpopulated... i dunno. but if i study there, i dont have to get unnecessary subjects. i can finish the program in 2 years. in CDH, it's quite convinient coz the school is 10 mins away from home. but i have to take some subjects that i think i dont need! i can finish it in 2 1/2 years... so how's that? cant decide! waah!!!

anyway, if indeed, i'll be transferring to another school, then, i will surely miss my good friends in EAC. i will miss eating turon., the 30 peso french fries in a cup, my noisy classmates, the good teachers, the really bad teachers, the maze like corridors,the library, the olympic-sized swimming pool and the smell of kalamares around the area. what i wont be missing are the pollution and the uniform. ok so that's it. haaaay. God please help me decide once and for all.

saya ulit

natututwa talaga ako sa mga sandaling pagsasama namin nila ert at mygz... ngayun nadagdagan pa dahil mukhang madalas ko narin makikita si tin bats! sa makati na kasi sha nagwwork. sa wakas at narealize na rin nya ang kanyang freedom.... teacher parin sha pero koreans na ang tinuturuan nya... si ert, siguro after a year ko pa ulit makikita kasi babalik na ulit sha sa ateneo de naga. si mygz anjan lang sa makati pero baligtag ang oras! at ako naman, walang oras para sa mga gimik dahil magaaral ako buing magdamag.... therefore, hindi rin pala kami magkikitakita! omigosh.. ok... pero, just the same, sa saglit na pagkikitakita namin ay nakakagaan ng loob. kahit sobrang tagal nyong hindi nagtagpo, ganun parin sila... parang kahapon mo lang sila hindi nakita!

happy happy talaga.... si ayi lang ang wala. :( oh well.

mga pusa

ay badtrip, nabura lahat ng sinulat ko tungkol sa mga pusa ko kanina! arrrgh.... anywei. ulitin ko nalang...
natatawa ako kay Shang, yung aggit naming pusa, kasi pinakain ko sha ng oishi na may maraming wasabi... hindi nya na realize na MAaNGHANG pala yun! hahahaha... :) imaginine mo, pusang nakalawit ang pusa. ahahaha... mashado kasi shang matakaw e.. hehe.. pero mukhang nasarapan naman sha.
HAaay, andami na naming naging pusa... may namatay, may lumipat ng amo, at may kain lang ng kain...at may mga malalambing din.. may makukulit...
katulad nitong isang pusa ko na hindi ko nagawang ing obitwaryo... namatay sha early may. sa death bed nya (wala talagang kama, basta doon sa hinihigan nya), meow parin ng meow. ewan kung bakit.... akala nya siguro naiintindihan namin sha.. hindi naman... bait bait ng pusang yun... natutuwa nga don yung mga batang nagtitinda ng pandisal... ika nga nila "tingnan nyo o! ang amo nung pusa!!!"... paano ba naman, san ka makakakita ng ng pusang susundan ka mula bahay hangang sa dulo ng subdivision nyo (btw, malayo din yung dulo ng subd. namin)... natatkot nga ako kasi baka sundan pa nya yung jeep na sasakyan ko pag lumuluwas ako...
haaay... nakakamiss nga naman si kitty.. wala nang maingay sa bahay.. si shang nalang.... wala na akong kasamang maglakad sa kalye... pero ayus lang... alam ko nasa mas magandang lugar na sha, kaya, kitty sangdoo, PAALAM NA SAYU! miss ka na ng mga foot rug sa bahay... at miss ka na namin...

si kitty buong buhay pa

proteins

I have been reading a lot about cells and animal parts and PROTEINS. It's great! i didn't know that proteins are such great substances. they contribute to our body structure, they are our hormones, they contribute in building up our muscles etc etc etc... facinating, isn't it? haha... though it's taking me awhile to understand a lot about the human body, i'm still coping. im going to get used to this eventually.

I still miss the art scene.... especially now that im taking up a more challenging course (for me, that is), i think i wont have time to go around ccp, gigs, art exhibits like what i normally do (bearly when i was working)... saaad... but.. tsk... well.... that's fine.

Wow! Ang sikat ng araw!!!!

wow! pagkatapos ng maraming taon (dalawa lang naman), naramdaman ko rin ang tamis ng haplos ng hangin ng umaga ang ang oyayi ng kadiliman ng gabi.... *bugtong hininga*.... ang sarap matulog sa GABI!

sha nga pala, mga kapatid...

...oo, tumigil muna ako sa pagttrabaho at kasalukuyang nag tutuloy ng pag aaral... nakakapanibago ang buhay studyante! mermorize ulit... reports ulit.... uniform ulit! hirap!

*pweh* uniform! hindi talaga ako mahilig mag uniform, pero.. sige na nga! sinusumpa ko ang uniform namin dahil, kulay puti na nga (dumihin), soooobrang kapal pa ng tela! parang kang binabarbique unti unti...

..hehe... genun pa man... ayus lang! masayang kasi bagong impormasyon nanaman ang nakukuha ko.... bagong kaalaman... parang sa training sa call center din, pero yun nga lang eto, tatlong taon kong kukunin. :)

haaay... namimiss ko na ang matatamis at mapapait na boses ng mga kano.... namimiss ko nang magsabi ng..."thank you for calling, babay"..... pero ganun talaga. naging comfortzone din kasi ang PS e. pero yai na.

mahirap sa umpisa...pero masarap magaral....:)

seems like forever

I haven't immersed myself to arts, music and the usual stuff for such a long time and i miss it terribly. something in me just died.... wapaks! wake up petchai.. don't wallow to nothingness!

I just miss the old gang in people support. My dear batchmates (41).... hrmmph.. This picture was taken on a bus heading to laguna almost 2 years ago. geez... look! we dont look stressed yet in this pic. wait till you see us now. dreadful!

anyway, girlie, frankie and i are the only ones left in PS. JA will be leaving next week and, of course, will be joining another company that pays higher (i guess). good for him.. he'll be leaving the philippines too to join his wife in canada. about frankie, he'll be joining Lan, our supervisor, in a different account. Girlie, i dont know her plans. as for me, hehe, i'll be studying again. hope this will push through. i might take summer classes.... +sighs+...

i feel beaten for some reason. the 10x4 sched is just not working for me. maybe my body has not adjusted completely. i got really dark eyebags now.. as if i just got out from a boxing match.

i'll take pics of us tomorrow. check the difference. i'll try to blog again soon. :)

Steps to Improving Self-Esteem
I got this from a website. i just cant remember what it was. to the one who wrote this, thanks! :)

Note: i found the site! i copy-pasted this article from (http://kidshealth.org/teen/your_mind/mental_health/self_esteem.html#a_Steps_to_Improving_Self_Esteem)

If you want to improve your self-esteem, here are some steps to start empowering yourself:
Try to stop thinking negative thoughts about yourself. If you're used to focusing on your shortcomings, start thinking about positive aspects of yourself that outweigh them. When you catch yourself being too critical, counter it by saying something positive about yourself. Each day, write down three things about yourself that make you happy.

Aim for accomplishments rather than perfection. Some people become paralyzed by perfection. Instead of holding yourself back with thoughts like, "I won't audition for the play until I lose 10 pounds," think about what you're good at and what you enjoy, and go for it.
View mistakes as learning opportunities. Accept that you will make mistakes because everyone does. Mistakes are part of learning. Remind yourself that a person's talents are constantly developing, and everyone excels at different things — it's what makes people interesting.
Try new things. Experiment with different activities that will help you get in touch with your talents. Then take pride in new skills you develop.

Recognize what you can change and what you can't. If you realize that you're unhappy with something about yourself that you can change, then start today. If it's something you can't change (like your height), then start to work toward loving yourself the way you are.
Set goals. Think about what you'd like to accomplish, then make a plan for how to do it. Stick with your plan and keep track of your progress.

Take pride in your opinions and ideas. Don't be afraid to voice them.

Make a contribution. Tutor a classmate who's having trouble, help clean up your neighborhood, participate in a walk-a-thon for a good cause, or volunteer your time in some other way. Feeling like you're making a difference and that your help is valued can do wonders to improve self-esteem.

Exercise! You'll relieve stress, and be healthier and happier.

Have fun. Ever found yourself thinking stuff like "I'd have more friends if I were thinner"? Enjoy spending time with the people you care about and doing the things you love. Relax and have a good time — and avoid putting your life on hold.

Reviewed by: D'Arcy Lyness, PhD
Date reviewed: March 2009

hehe... these are the things we should always remember... so you guys with low spirits, these are reminders for you. thanks to the writer of this article.

superman

just look at his eyes. arent they beautiful? wow.....

ate and i watched superman returns yesterday.. that was an awesome movie... loved the effects.. loved the actor... naks.... haha

yesterday, june15, was a pretty long day... had cheering practice.. sang in a videoke bar w/ collegues in greenbelt mall, and met w/ ayi and mygz. supposedly i was going to the hospital to visit my uncle but i didnt go cuz i was sneezing (in not allowed to visit. hehe)

twas a fine day.

irish pinoy outing

sighs...i'm really gonna miss the irish pinoy family ... for these past few weekends, i've been with my family going to outings, mostly swimming, hanging out at mamang's house and going to the mall eating, watching football in san mig, drinking coffee, window shopping and skating.

i really enjoyed ate liza's visit. it was nice to know how kuya larry's like behind all those pictures. he's like daddy, he seems to be a good man and has a good sense of humor too. :) i only remember some events of ate liza being around in the phils. but this is the only visit that i really was able to see how she gets along w/ her kids and kuya larry. she's like a teenager .cool mom... :) the kids have all grown up. beautiful kids, they are. Brian, already 17, loves alternative rock music, looks like harry potter (as a lot of people say) and is a soccer player. kieran, age 13, is the mr. suave of ireland. he loves taking pictures of himself ('i should be a model' as he mentioned once) and loves the girls' attention (hehe.naks).... ahehehe.. and timmy boy, a typical 10 year old, who questions a lot, who loves sports/ any kind of challenge and loves pancakes and noodles. he has the most beautiful, sparkling eyes ive ever seen. when i see tim, the jingle of one of the baby colognes on tv plays at the back of my head (the beautiful eyes jingle. hehehehe)....

im going to miss the kids... when they come back, they'll all be grown ups. but im happy they came home.

girl thing

oh well.it's kinda hard being a girl. every month you need to go thru pain and discomfort... tsk...thats life.

bat ganun?

bakit nun pedeng mag edit ng texts ngayn hindi na!!! siguro depende sa computer ewan...

PETA

pagkatpos ng maraming bwan/ taon, nakapanood ulit ako ng teatro.. kanina kasama ko si karen at cheri sa marikina theatre.... titolo: lola basyang... tama lang yung storya... nakakatawa.. pang bata...

ayus pala tong blogspot... maayus na ngayun. may mga font.. kulay at pwede na maglagay ng litrato kahit hindi na gumait ng photobucket! ayus na ayus pala to....

hrmmm.... teka tuloy ko muna yung kwento ko kanina... pagkatapos namin manood ng teatro, nagpunta kami sa gateway... 1st time ko makarating don... maganda.... parang podium

sobrang inaantok na ako!!! 24 hrs na akong gising...

sha bukas na ulit... minsan lang ako magpost dito.. hehehe

bagong taon

wala lang. black and white. wala kasi si momi at dadi.. paalis na si biboy puntang us.. hindi nako masaya sa bp. batch 41, hiwahiwalay na ng acct..

pero, genun paman.. haha.. AYUS LANG!!! kahit walang kulay ang buhay madalas, tawa lang ang kailangan.. tapos masaya na ulit ang lahat.. :)

inaantok lang ako ngayun... punu na ng credit report issues ang utak ko... owell..

tulog muna ako... party boy si utol ngayun..

da me en da church

hindi ko nga ba alam kung bakit

ako sobrang na bbore pag asa

simbahan ako... hindi ako

mapakali.. naninikip ang dibdib at

pinagpapawisan ng malamig...

hrrmmm.. siguro may 'girl thing'

lang ako ngayun.. bast hindi

komportable... sana ang

pagsisimba sakin, mas maging

makabuluhan.. hindi ko lang

talaga maintindihan ang 'dahilan'

kung bakit kailangan magsimba...

para saakin napaka out of this

world. (siguro depende sa

interpretasyon ng bawat isa to...

basta saaking meron akong

sariling interpretasyon at sariling

paniniwala) aahh basta... anyway,

baka ito nalang ang maging topic

ng blog nato kaya.. enough...

ibang topic naman...

sabi ng isang blogger na dumalaw dito ay magupdate na raw ako.. kaya heto... im back! ang kwento? sa totoo lang parang marami pero konti lang..

isa isahin ko nga...

1. kanina nagkitakita nanaman kaming magpipinsan sa atc... kain.. kape (haha courtesy of biboy)... nakipaglaro kay coco (dogi nila ate mads)..nood ng flightplan (mejo ang babaw)... tapos dinner nanaman (nasunog ang bulsa (pero masaya naman).. tapos uwi...

2. 11-5-05... nag ensayu para sa ccap... hindi ko nga trip tumugtog ngayun mga panahon nato pero wala na magagwa e.. pero looking at the bright side, at least mappractice ako ulit! :)

3. baka magreunion kami ng mga kaberks ko

Lapit na!

malapit na akong mag-gown!!! malapit na kasi ang kasal ng kuya ko... olats lang wala pa akong silver sandals. ang bakla.. hehe.. wala lang akong mashare kasi wala pang mashado nanyayari saakin pag katapos ng :

1. batch bonding namin sa office na maloopet.. nag overlooking kami sa mundok ng antipolo!!! ayus! asteeg talaga yun...

2. nanood ng musiklaban kasama si ert, rc at biboy. family reunion ba. kasabwat namin ang rock ed nun kaya madaling nakapasok.. nag boluntir kasi.. :)

3. kanina kausap si mygz sa telepono. miss ko nayun...

henyweiz ayun lang.. hangang sa muli

blog ulit

Music: complicated by Avril lavigne

wala lang nasa bahay ako. magisa dahil iniwan ako ng mga kapatid ko. nasa sta cruz silang dalawa.. natulog kasi ako e... hindi ko na matandaan ang mga nakaraang nangyari sa buhay ko.. teka... itry ko tandaan... hrmmm...

last week, bday ni melvin... 4 hrs akong nagtravel paungo doon.. mano mano ang pagpunta. kakaiba!!! kakapagod.. pagdating ko kila melbin pagod at gutom na ako!!! parang rakstar ako nung dumating. ahehehe. kakamiss yung mga jologs. kaso olats, basta... parang group date. ako lang at si domeng lang ang walang kasama. sus. pero ayus din naman.. ang sarap mag tambol lalo na pag kajaming mo e ang drumsibs mo. kakamiss tumugtog! nung pauwi na, hindi na stressful kasi naman naka-aircon bus na patungo sa baklaran. ang sayang magjoke time... haay...

badtrip lang talaga pag may kasamang mga gerlaloo at boylaloo (in genral) yung bp.. hindi kayu makapag bonding ng maayus.. si jp umalis kaagad. si bern naman, hindi makasali sa joketime.. si rosa't jap.. ayus lang, kaso nawawala sa sirkulasyun.. si melbin at ayi, ayus lang naman. wala talagang banding masyadow.. pero masarap magjamming.. at di bale, ayus din. da more da meriyer.. at asteeg naman yung mga gerlaloosh e.yun lang.. at tuuloy ako kaagad sa atc non. shopping mode ako nun... bumili ako ng puting shirt, headband na sobrang sikip (ika nga ni chito, pagn facelift). naakit kasi ako sa kulay e. perpol kasi. may natipuhan akong army pants yung nga lang hindi kasha saakin!!! arggh. kakainis!!! at yung sleeping bag na bibilin ko dapat e ang dumidumi kaya maghahanap nalang ako sa ibang tindahan... necessity yun sa mga antukin katulad ko.. pag meron mtg sa sat kasi, kailangan makitulog sa pscenter para hindi mashado bangag..

Anywei, tungkol naman sa rock ed phils, nakakatuwa yung org na yun, yun nga lang parang kalat kalat.. hindi ko ba maintindihan minsan...nevertheless, asteeg parin.. parang one.org.

kaninang gabi, pumasok ako sa opis.. halos walang tawag! napagod ako sa kauupo.. sumakit yung likod ko kasi ang panget ng upuan ko... mahirap na kalaban ang inip.. at nagka-last call pa ako na nakakairita..

aftershift nagpunta kami ng the fort. hindi kasama si jr kasi magsisimba.. si frankie naman kasama si sheila. nag-go donuts lang naman kami.. wala lang.. chika lang...

bday ni momi,. binati ko sha at nasa nevada daw sila at magccasino at magpicnic.. ayus ang gimik ng nanay at tatay ko ah!!! ahehehe... miss ko na yung mga yun..

si ert at mygz, syemps matagal narin hindi nagkikita. si myla nasa samar na at nagvolunteer... si ert busy sa assumption... hindi pa kmi ulit nagkikita simula last week. bangagers talaga. haha.. kakamiss din.

sa bahay, well kaming tatlo nila ate rochie at biboy ang magkakasama... hindi pa kami naglilinis ng bahay...

may naiisip akong kanta... pero argggh, hindi ko alam ang artist at yung title ng kanta! olats

ending song: A.M to PM by christina milan (nax pop!)

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grabe ang laking pagbabago!!! wala na ata akong pagtingin sa katabi ko kanina... parang nawala ang 'glow' na bumabalot sa kanya twing nakikita ko sha.. hindi ko rin alam ang nangyari... di ko alam kung nasa tamang pagiisip ba ako... parang may transition na nanyari last week.. wirdo nakakatakot! parang yung clueless na movie.. yung nga lang ako nawala lahat ng realizations...

basta...kayung tatlo, mga animal!salamat at mejo pinahiran nyo ng icing ang buhay ko kahit saglit... kahit isang linggo lang..

tera group hug tayo... *hug*

cynthia alexander...ang tunay na henyotik... walang tatalo!!! iba ka!!! tunay kang artista! mabuhay ka!!!

ang regalo

regalo sakin ni myla!!! tenchoo! wab you!! pakiss!!!

SOUNDTRIP

yeba ang sarap mag soundtrip!!!! :) saya saya!!! nakikinig ako ng kaamulan. naiindak ako.. masarap magtugtugan (kakamiss) pero mas masarap makinig... TENCHU MYLA SA MP3s!!! buhay ulit ako...

dapat nsa opish ako ngayun kasi promise ko kila frankie na mag OT ako.. e yun nga lang sobrang bangag di ko na kaya.. promises are not made to be broken... but ive just broken it.. nyahahaha...napala ko hindi ako kasama sa jolibee nila. :( e kompleto naman ang mga kaberks ngayun... haaay... pero ayus lang kasi nakasama ko sila myla at ert kahapon.

green day kahapon... sa hindi sinasadyang kadahilanan, nakagreen kaming tatlo.. dapat manonood kaming tatlo ng artfilm. kaso mas masarap mag geltok. ritwal na naming tatlo ang magkitakita twing sabado. ayun, naglayag din kami sa robinsons mall sa may mandaluyong. sarap amglibot don dahil konti lang ang tao at sobrang init sa labas. sarap magpa erkon. tapos ayun nakabili pa ako ng murang pantalon.. :)

pinagusapan namin lablyp ni mylagailaloo.. intyendes ko si myla... haay ang pagibig, ganyan talaga. sakit sa puso.... sabi nga namin sa kanya, ramdamin lang nya at mawawala din yun..

soundtripping din kami at nagdownload ng kung ano anong asteeg na music...

parng ang sarap mamili ng mga bagay bagay. bibili nga pala ako ng lufa.. nilulumot na kasi yung nasa CR. ahehehe. at chaka bagong t-shirt.. chaka regalo ke ate rochie. (hano bayan! nakalipas na ang bertdi nya).. hrmmm me listahan ko ng mga bibilin ah. nakalimutan ko.. ayun! bibili rin ako ng dove at mousse. pang vain ba... pero shemps hinay hinay lang dapat din..

alis muna ako... mananaginip muna ako.. haha.