Stupid Egg

Okray

nakaka hurt din pala kapag first time i-criticize yung work mo.... constructive criticism naman sha pero parang may kirot. hehe... siguro... aside sa na feel ko na nilait ang work ko, e, inis lang kasi kulang pa ang pag-isip ko sa ginagawa ko. parang shoot and go na ako. lol. pero ayos lang... kaya nga ako nagaaral para matuto... para mailagay ko sa maayos na larawan ang mga gusto kong kuhanan.

masaya ang workshop at sobrang dami talagang natutunan. ang fave topic ko ay yung composition. dami dami daming techniques para mapaganda ang litrato.... kung baga sige kalimutan mo muna ang mga iso, aperture at shutterspeed na yan... magcompose ka muna ng maayos... at pag hasa na, go! mag 3 pillars ka na. :) magaling mag turo si sir Nik Taytay... natutuwa ako sa mga nagtuturo based sa mga experiences nila, hindi yung galing lang sa libro. ;)

masaya rin kasama ang mga ka-workshop ko. :) ang kkwela. sa una tatahi-tahimik. mga pagod kasi sa byahe. pero once warmed up na, ayan, tawa tawa na. LOL!

Sobrang sulit ng basic photog workshop na ito talaga. :) sana magamit ko lahat ng natutunan ko.... i mean, gagamitin ko talaga! hahahahaha!

prepared narin akong ma-okray ulit. it hurts, pero mas gusto ko naman yung malaman ko yung mali at paano itama yun. :)

salamat sa pamilyang KLIK . :)

Arangkada

"banayad lang ang pagbitaw sa klats para hindi ka mamatayan!" - driving tutor

whoa! twas my first time to drive in a road with all the traffic obstacles! i was sooo nervous. gawd! but i survived!!! i need more practice.

Hot Air Balloon Festival (the boo boos)

i got frustrated today! :( until now, i don't seem to be satisfied with picture style my cam is producing. this was supposed to be the day when i just had to aim and shoot, not bother much on techie stuff. i just can't help it! these are my sentiments:

1. the pics on the camera's lcd look nice. but when i transfer it to my computer, they look a little over exposed. the colors do not seem right, too.

2. i keep changing the picture style settings. i'm now confused what to use (deoending the the lighting condition)

3. Grrrrh!

Canon, i love you. but please give me what i want! work with me!

oh... here's the thing.. I RAN OUT OF BATTERIES! I was not able to get decent pictures of the balloons. bummer!

Hot Air Balloon Festival

Planes. Kites. Divers. Paramedics. Balloons. People.

They were everywhere!!!! The HAB (Hot Air Balloon Fiesta) was held in the Air Force City in Clark Freezone Port. Ate and I arrived there at 7:30am. Since there were a lot of people in-line for the tickets, we decided to eat breakfast first before going in. The balloons had already flown anyway. I got a few shots of them in the air. (lousy looking pictures. pfft!)

At 9am, buying the tickets was a breeze! it was fast! We stayed inside the airport up until 7pm. Here's the list of what we did.

1. watched the airplanes do their routine

2. watched the kites

3. photographed the surroundings (i have sentiments about this. will share later)

4. tasted BUKO SHAKE! yum!

5. asked Ate Rochie to take pictures of me in the area. hehe

6. watched the divers prepare for their take-off

7. tour inside the airport guided by Pearl

8. ate lugaw and isaw

9. saw the HOt Air Balloons!!! :)

It felt like Disney Land. IT's amazing to have seen those HUGE BALLOONS! i did not expect myself to be in so much awe. I feel that the music and the night sky gave a certain feel to it. :)

Maximum upload size exceeded!

oh no no no.... this is bad... i have made my multiply account my official photo album! i didn't know they have this "maximum upload size exceeded"!?! oh well... it's time for another account then. shutterfly it is!!!!

here it is! my new photo webby! :) click the image to visit the website. naks! :)

http://nanaxiu.shutterfly.com

Road trip

whoa... i spent a fortune just for the fare going to (and from) tagaytay. well, actually, geca and i made a few stops before going there. we had to drop by st. cabrini to get the license numbers of our preceptors for our IVT cases. thank God i'm all done with it! :)

Anyway, it was noon and was scorching hot! the weather is becoming very confusing nowadays. on our way to tagaytay, dark clouds piled up in the sky and started to drizzle... so i thought "NOOOOOO. i neeeed the suuuun!!!"... mother nature heard me and made the rain stop.... (it was not really raining in some parts of the expressway!)

originally, we were supposed to go to nasugbu, batangas. we decided not to pursue it since it's late in the afternoon. so, we stayed in tagaytay instead. Shooting wass my main goal for this trip. i wanted to take photos of the taal lake and the mountains. guess what? the scene was hazy! *grrr* i was expecting the sun to light up the scene and give me a gorgeous landscape. sorry me. *hrmp*

i think this shot is pretty interesting. hehe

i haven't transferred the pictures in my PC. i have yet to discover if i did get nice shots. i hope i did!

where did we go? we went to the "palace in the sky"... palace? you call that palace? hahaha! it's more like "ruins in the sky"! Sayang. they should have taken care of the place. what a waste! the view should have been great if i went there in the morning (i guess). Next time, i shall.

overlooking from the palace in the sky. they look like toys. :)

the walk going down from the palace was better than being at the palace! there was ride going back to the market except the over-priced tricycle. no way will pay P80.00 just for a short ride??? we started to walk and felt the cool breeze of the place. the view was quite awesome too. :) the walk was indeed very short! we saw jeepneys! good thing we didn't pay 80 pesos. that's the fare going back to laguna already. we were supposed to go to 'picnic grove' and 'our Lady of Manawag' but decided not to 'cause we might miss the last trip going home. "Gala nalang tayo sa Paseo." and off to paseo, we were. :) Geez, i fell asleep in the van! yikes!

I told myself i'm not eating out.... sorry, but i did. *spank*.... yellow cab's spaghetti and meat balls + a 10 inch cheese pizza were for dinner. BUSOOOG! i went home with a fat tummy and a thin wallet.

it was fun. thanks geca, for the company. :)

Tagaytay-Nasugbu

I really do hope i will be able to go on a trip for a change! i hope it's sunny tomorrow.:)

The Uncluttering

Facebook seems to have a problem.

Anyway...

I am now "uncluttering" the cabinets in the kitchen. there are a lot of stuff there i want to give away since they're not being used...

Anilao...Pagsanjan... hrmmm

I want this week to be jam-packed.... on march, i'll be starting my hospital duties. so i better make something out of my time while im free as a bird... :) soooo... hrmmm... i might go around photowalking in:

1. Anilao: of course, im on a budget. i'll just go there to take pictures and go straight home... siguro mejo magtatampisaw ng kaunti. hehe

2 Pagsanjan: oh, this is an easy place to go to... there are a lot of old houses i can take a picture of. :)

3. hrmmmm.. can't think of anything more. LOL

pffft.... i will be a traveler on a budget. so i plan to only spend for my fare... Food? I shall bring my pack lunch. LOL.

Hachiko

*teeeaaaaars* Oh my gosh! this dog made me cry!

Hachiko, the loyal dog (how adorable!)

the candy warehouse

An online buddy and I were discussing a piece of our childhood when once upon a time, WE GOT LOST. I want it raw so just copypasted the convo... now, read...

i remember i got lost too

in a candy store in divisoria

yea? what happened?

oh shit! divi is so big

i know right? so i was wearing jeans and a cute snoopy stripped shirt. i lost an earring. and my hair was short... i was 6 or 5 back then

your hair was short? i cant imagine

lol

pogi!

joke lang

then?

i cant find my mom.... i cried.... then a woman came to me and said....."totoy, wag ka na umayak. hanapin natin ang mama mo.."

hahahahaha!

TOTOY!?!. natigilan ako nun! hahahahaha!

a child with one earring?!.... ang astig naman nun!

hahahahaha!

hahahahha

cute

WALA LANG. hehe

Chocolates and Chicken

"Kuya, meron ba kayong sugar free chocolates dito?".... Geez.. whatever happened to Petchai who swore not to eat chocolates forever and ever? Starting late December 2010, i started nibbling on chocolate truffles. i remember, Renz and her niece, Lara O. and Andrew witnessed this. I placed the truffles in a white bowl... they were just picking it and popping 'em in their mouths. i said to myself, why not try just a little, tiniwini bite?... and so i did... IT WAS HEAVEN. While savoring its bitter-sweet goodness, i was also observing myself since i wouldn't like to unleash the monstrous transformation that i had before.... Lately, when i feel a little reaction, i'd take a pill.

Kuya said there were no available sugar free chocolates for sale. I ended up buying a Goya Dark Chocolate with Almond and Cabury Strawberry Wafer. Nyum nyum!

Petchai must have been lenient to herself, lately... i just hope she wouldn't over do it. DISCIPLINE MUST RULE!

oh, and by the way, i eat chickens now....

"Bayabas"

There are really some people who are talented in making up stories. I'm amazed by them as I am annoyed of what they do. People tend to alter and exaggerate the truth. I tend to just give them the benefit of the doubt. "Bayabas", as they call it.. Meaning, "mayabang". haha!

the bomb

The bomb threats are always in Makati. Yesterday, cherry rodeo sent me a text mentioning there was a bomb threat in Assumption?!? Geez! From what i know, that school is the safest amongst schools in Makati since it's inside San Lorenzo Village. hrmmm.. Well.. you can never tell which is safe nowadays..

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I headed to the Medical City yesterday to have my second shot of the HPV vaccine , as well as my thyroid check up. There was a loooong queue with my Endocrinologist. I wonder if she's the only one in Medical City who has that specialization. I made sure I won't miss that check up because it's pretty hard to get an appointment. I was supposed to have my checkup on December 15 but had a conflict with my schedule. I was rescheduled January 31! the 31st patient on the 31st of January. what a coincidence. LOL!

i was reading a forum regarding " what makes a photographer professional??". i just wanted to quote a line from Mr. Ralph Berrett regarding photojournalism... he shared 3 basic concepts:

(1) Be the firstest with the mostest.
(2) Shot first ask forgiveness later.
(3) When in doubt motor out.

the forum i'm reading is really a 'good read'... kinda inspired... so.. im outa here.. gotta be the firstest with the mostest!

i woke up really early today (4:00am).

I posted (and still posting) several family pictures on facebook. it's kind of frustrating to upload nowadays FB is not cooperating at times. too slow.

i wish I'm done with my duty in st. cabrini. :( hrmph

Shoulda brought the big camera with me yesterday. i wanted to take pictures in 'geothermal'.

Sorry blogger..... i don't feel like writing so much on here... i will when something nice really happens to me. :)

Heavenly Forest... awwww.

Oh my gulay! i have to blog this. i just saw this japanese movie called "heavenly forest" and it made me cry buckets of bitter-sweet tears. waaah! thank you to majo and nikko for talking about it on facebook. it was a good cry.

my favorite scenes were:

1. the first and the last kissing scene at their special place (they made it without the MUSH)

2. Makoto crying while looking at Shizuru's photographs of him. (awww...)

IT'S A MUST TO SEE THIS FILM!!!! WAAAAH!

(photo taken from: http://arwentry.wordpress.com/2010/09/08/tada-kimi-wo-aishiteru-heavenly-forest/)

It's 2011! Another year of happiness and challenges. Haha. 2010 has been kind of a whirlwind. Studied for the boards, had a mega crush on someone, joined red cross as an instrutor, got to know my camera and joined klik, passed the board exam, made a major production at school! There were a lot of happy things that happened last year!

Amoy Amerika

yesterday was one of the HAPPIEST christmases ever!!!! thanks to my brother, Biboy.
Tita Mely and the rest of the family didn't know of his return. wahahaha! you should've seen their faces! GULAT NA GULAT! wahahaha. love it!
In LP, they were expecting biboy already... "Asan si biboy?".. i thought,"huh, bat mo alam???"... ANO BA!? it was supposed to be a surprise! hahaha. My older cousins where bullying him (for endearment.. hehehe) just like the old times. He's the youngest amongst cousins so i guess he's used to it. LOL. Ipapa raffle daw ni kuya Jun yung Ipad nya. Kuya Mitch even made the stubs (with miggy's, che's and his name on them)... ang kukuleet! hahaha!

Off topic: fogi talaga ni fafa E. lol!

Puyat

Paskong pasko, hiindi ako nagising! Magenonochebuena sana ako sa kapitbahy namin. Sa sobrang lalim ng tulog ko, hindi ko narinig ang tawag ni ate rochie. Tsk.. Nagising ako ng 1:30am dahil may narinig akong cellphone na nag rring. Tsk... Anyway, ang nakuha kong regalo mula sa aking pinsan ay cookbook. Hehehe. Nice! Thanks, ate maddie! Ang ganda ganda ng balot. Sayang hindi ko napicturan. Binigyannaman ako ni bunsong kapatid ng tripod. Ayos, mas konting accessories na ang bibilinko para sa aking hobby. Akala ko nga e prime lens ang ibibigy saakin o flash.. Hehehe. Sayang. Ok narin. Thanks, biboy! Sila mommy at daddy, nagbigay ng mga hikaw at purseras. Ag gaganda! Madadagdagan nanaman ang aking "for special occassions only" collection. Dhehehe. Mukha naman pwedeng araw arawin yun. Si ate rochie, sabi nya wala pa shang regalo saakin. Hehe. Hindi pa nya ako nabibulan. Ahehehehe. Naku pu.. Sana talaga e prime lens or flash nalang. Mamantrahan ko talaga. Lol! Magapapasko kami sa sta cruz bukas tanghalian. Sa manila naman sa hapunan. (
Ayan, namention ang pagkain nagugutom na tuloy ako. Haaay.)..

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Dahil nanood ako ng BALITA

Ang jologs ng justice system talaga dito sa Pinas. ayan... parehong talo ang mga Visconde at mga Webb... tsk tsk.

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Daming walang trabaho. 2.8M katao sa pinas ang jobless... ohmygas!

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Makatulog na nga.

Chasing Cows

I went modelling for a friend the other day. (modelling... hahaha. that's funny!)... i learned that as a model you must be daring no matter what! sooo there you go! daring i was...

it was traumatizing.

Mentalist

(12:49:50 am)freshlybrewed:actually, i noticed something about you

(12:50:04 am)nanaxiu:what did you notce?

(12:50:47 am)freshlybrewed:you have this lucky face

(12:51:31 am)freshlybrewed:that's really odd nowadays

(12:51:31 am)nanaxiu:really? magdilang anghel ka sana!

(12:51:40 am)freshlybrewed:your face tells me that you are generally a happy person. people want you around them cos you make them happy. pero pag may situation na kailangan ka ng mga tao, you give your time to them. that's a good thing but minsan napapagod ka na. napapasaya mo mga tao sa paligid mo. but when you are alone you know deep inside of you that you are looking for something or someone. it's like there are only few people you trust who know you more than more people you know. sorry im talkative :D my friend i a mentalist a he reads people's minds. he taught me to read faces long time ago. :D

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Lucky face eh? how come i didn't win the lottery! I even planned how to spend it. argh. 700M... tsk tsk..

Read on that last paragraph.. the long one... i ask my self am i generally a happy person? hrmm.. right now i don't feel happiness.. nor sadness... i just feel something is missing. that's it. i have no feelings! OMG. (i'm so weird). i don't even know if people like to be around me. (haha). the third paragraph is quite right. i'm a human punching bag! (haha just kidding friends... you know who you are.). Do you make money out of being a mentalist? i think it'll be lucrative. haha!

(damn this keyboard)

Hrmph.

Maybe, I am not meant to be happy in this life time.

.... i miss you, Dairy Queen.

Happy Birthday Andrew & Renz

Lara O., Renz, Wacky and Andrew

yeah!

Argentina Dream

It would be really nice to be able to go out of the country and volunteer. i know, there are a lot of people who are in need here (Phils.). but it would be different if i'd experience and learn from another culture. *sighs*.... I wish i can go and volunteer in Argentina on January... just for 4 months. it would be sooo awesome! though i doubt that mom and dad would approve of it...

#1. it's expensive

#2. i have no one with me (no other contact)

#3. they wont approve of the idea of me living with foster parents...

this is so frustrating. i like it so badly... if there's a will, there's a way!.... hrmmm ... i should think of a plan to raise money for this so i can eliminate #1. to eliminate #2, i should organize a group (friends) who are willing to join the program. I will have to bring my cousin with me since she has a friend in argentina. that way, i can get rid of #3 (for accomodations, haha)... i shall think of this everyday... it shall materialize someday. yey!

Marami kayang corned beef don? hrmmm. hihi.

I've seen this beverage in Discovery Travel and Living Channel. It's like the Argentinian Starbucks. hehe. I want to taste this! :) It's called Mate.

(photo credits to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Cuias_de_chimarrao.jpg)

Why oh Why?!

Mortal sin: i ate a truffle this afternoon... oh no!!!! Lord sana hindi naman ako mamaga! baka mag mukhang allergy nanaman ako. ayoko na maging headturner.

Pero, ang sarap talaga ng truffles!!!

Mortal sin: i ate heavy dinner tonight... (happy birthday, andrew! thanks for the treat!)... good luck to my impaired glucose tolerance. tsk... WHYYYY!?! i wish i was normal...

(Photo taken from http://yoursoulsdesire.com/)

DUMBOLITO

I went to the ZOO yesterday!!! woohooo!!! i love the animals!!!... i just dislike their stink... i saw an elephant, exotic birds, a hippo(!) and a sleeping tiger. there were nocturnal bears, too... it's really interesting. i've never seen such large snakes ever! looked like they were anacondas (i know, there aren't any in the Phils)... the monkeys, by the way, reminded me of the silly furball that pulled my flowery blue skirt and won't let go when i was 7 years old. haha!

I went to the zoo primarily to take pics of the animals. unfortunately, i left my beloved gear and was not able to get satisfying shots. ohwell. next time, i shall bring the thing with me. always.

Ayaw nya ng jump shot.

Klik camera club

Klik is my new photo club family (club na nga, family pa. haha). i am really thankful to have met new and interesting people whom i share the same interest with. Tim, the organizer, was so nice. he even lent me his flash! he also shares tidbits of tips/ techniques on how to go about taking pics. there were after shoot dinners... tsk. i missed those. had to get home early to my lola's house. Cinderella mode. haay.

Hobby.

hehe. here is the list of advice that i got from different hobbyist. (not verbatim)

1. constructive criticism is good.. pero wag kang makikinig sa ibang photographers kung na achieve mo yung 'look' na gusto sa isang photograph.

2. Dapa!

3. laruin mo yung ISO, Aperture at Shutterspeed

4.

will continue this blog later.

I'm an enthusiast.

Ahh. there are a lot to learn in photography. Yes, cameras of today are made to think for us to save time and effort. but to really understand it and get the real essence of photography, you really have to study it.. hone it. so.. what are the basics? you have to learn the ISO, aperture and shutterspeed. once you get the 3 basic "pillars" (?), you can go and do your thing. By the way, i'd like to thank Tim Ignacio for organizing the photoshoot; Midge and Den for posing for us; Bobbit, Erwin, Jun and the other photogs for sharing tidbits about style and technique. Here are some of my photos. :)

Den Reyes

Midge

these are my new set of photo buddies. friendly people. :) this shot was taken by erwin. see the inscription on the lower right corner? that's his website.

I will take my time learning this. hindi ako magmamadali. :)

KIWI

I have been watching some bittersweet materials this week. this evening, ate rochie showed me a short animation called "KIWI". the character was cutesy patootsky, but the film just gave me a kick at the end. wooh. *tears* go on. watch it!

I have also see "7 POUNDS" starring will smith. i've seen the movie 3 times on HBO but i've never started it.

bored

haaay. life is sooo boring!!! what do i do to make it a little more exciting?

Life of a Glutton

Yes, i am a self confessed glutton. or WAS. i don't get to eat as much as i want to. but it's a good thing i guess. too much of everything is bad anyway.

Lounging

Lounging at Starbucks, Calamba. I fought for this seat. nah... haha im exaggerating.

Back to blogging

Ronald McDonald has been my profile picture ever since Sanctuaryo was created. just now, i thought of changing it. But i dunno what picture i'd change it to. So, i finally decided not to change anything here. haha. big deal. whatever.

I wonder why i cannot log in to a certain website with my connection. In other providers (rather, in places with free wifi), i can log in without any problem. it frustrates me.

I'm such a whiner! haha. sorry about that...

Let me tell you about something nice.

This week, i was able to apply for a volunteer job as a nurse in Laguna Provincial Hospital with the help of my cousin- in- law, ate Ginny. Without, her, i won't be able to get a spot on that hospital. (i don't agree with the whole system, but in times of great need, we have to go with the flow). Anyway, the volunteer work will start on March 2011. THANKS, ATE GINNY! Geez, i still have a few months to fill in. What to do??? argh... actually,here are my options..

1. I can apply for a Med-Rep position in Invida (i met Biboy's classmate in elementary who is now a director area manager for the company. she said i can go and take the exam immediately)--my predicament is, if i'd get the position, i am just going to be with the company for only 4 months. Is it worth it to work for a company for only 4 months? and will it be fair for them? Daddy's advice: concentrate on nursing practice first. make it a priority.

2. Look for other hospitals that are in need of nurses. i personally want to try out working in maternal and child lying-in clinics. i want to have be good at delivering babies. :)

3. Enroll in trainings such as IVT (which is a necessity), ACLS-BLS-CPR trainings, etc. But this will cost moolah. i've been living on charity for 3 years now. i want to earn again (says my id)... but i need trainings so i can be good at what i do, patience is a vitue (says my super ego)... My ego is confused right now.

4. Be active with Red Cross.. (i'm always available for red cross, unless i'm doing something else at the moment ). i want to experience a 'real rescue'.

5. Just wait for March 2011 and do nothing else... just facebooking... (ha! no way! scrap this option out. i'd be bored to death)

6. Just wait for March 2011 and do something unrelated to nursing like photography or capoeira or events organizing (haha... my gosh, this is tempting!!!! i want (says my id)!!! but not practical (says my super ego) cos i need to be focusing on nursing practice... *sighs* I MISS THE ART SCENE! Oh well... i can do this on the side, i guess... i've got lots of ideas for our Christmas party. hihi.

7. Apply as a private duty nurse and take care of the rich elderly people in Ayala Alabang. (hrmmm... it's a good idea cos i'd be able to practice nursing, at the same time, get paid to do it. still, i have to think if it's feasible given the time frame)

8. Buy a franchise of a certain food chain and make moolah out of it... (again, FOCUS!)

9. Review for IELTS, a requirement to get a job in Canada. From what i heard, it has its validity for 3 years (i think). timing is of the essence here, too. Should read on details about this.

Ok, so these are fresh thoughts from my neurons. Have to work my butt on this by next week.

Kaya yan! :)

unfair life is.

3 days at Health Care Advantage Institute.

ok.. so that's me @ the virtual ICU. i was taking care of the dummy. :)

Birthday blog (LATE POST) #1

Sept. 28, 2010-Dahil hindi ko dala ang aking journal at wala nang space a aking phone (para maka pag 'blog'), dating gawi ulit - sa scratch paper nalang mag sulat. isang dakilang nars na ako dahil registered na. kulang nalang ay yung physical license at yung ID ko. shempre, practice sa hospital din.

kasama ko si Royce kanina... sa october 19 ko pa makukuha ang license ko.may mga pamilyar na mga mukha akong nakita kanina tulad ni Ruby at ni Justine. *haaay*... sana naman maging effective at maging efficient ako na nars pag nasa hospital na ako. kelangan ko talagang magsanay na maging mabilsi sa lahat ng mga bagay. kanina nakikinig ako kay Royce tungkol sa mga kwento nya sa hospital nakikinig palang ako, pagod na ako. IKAW NA ANG BAHALA SAAKIN, LORD!

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Birthday ko nga pala ngayon. 28 years old sa September 28. buti hindi ako dinatnan ng birthday blues. pagod siguro kaya hindi na nakapag senti. haha. Gusto ko kumain mamaya sa indian resto. sa new bombay ako kakain mamaya. hindi naman ako makapagimbita kasi wala nang battery yung phone ko.Arggh. nagugugtom na ako!

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Nakita ko yung sarili ko sa salamin kanina. ANG PAYAT KO!!! Gusto ko tumaba ng konti sa mukha. ngunit paano?! naku naman. kelangan mag plano na ako sa aking game plan... game plan sa buhay. gayun pa man, kelangan kong matutong mag chill. Chillax lang. wag mashadon OC. OCness wastes time. basta dapat organized ako. So help me God.

Amen.

Dear Lord, I am such a nervous wreck right now. Im afraid, i still cannot handle too much stress in my life. i mean.... this one i have right now is not even a problem to others. but for me... for me it's something.... if you think about it, it's simple but... arrrgh! i think, what i cant handle is shame of asking favors because of stupid mistakes.....

as they say, mistakes make you stronger in the long run... but i hope i wont make grave mistakes! not in nursing... not ever!

Help me God. Thanks.

New hobby

Yesterday was my first ever pre-nup photoshoot... (ok here i go again, telling the world what i'm doing... sorry can't help it. haha)... it WAS challenging for me since this is all new to me. see, i don't have a formal training in photography and i had to direct as well. i can say that i was happy with some of the photos and kinda disappointed with some... acceptable since im a newbie. :)

thank you, xenia and elmer!

Biyaya

shempre, ang tagal tagal tagal tagal ko nanaman hindi nakapag sulat dito.. bakit? kasi naging mejo busy siguro na may halong katamaran. hehe... pero sige na nga magkkwento na ako. kamusta naman? maraming pangyayari. :)

1. pagkatapos ng board exam. mejo tumambay ng kaunti... sumasama kay ate aimee magpa "treat" sa nugabest. sayang may free na termanium stones na sa sana ako kung tinuloytuloy ko yun. pero nag karon ng appointments e.

2. nanirahan sa sta cruz ng ilang lingo upang makadalo sa mga training: (a) disaster nursing, (b) ambulance operation training, (c) instructors' training course for BLS and CPR.

3. Astig! Red Cross Instructor na ako. angas no?

4. at eto ang mas Angas....PASADO AKO SA BOARD EXAM!!!!! WOOOHOOO! :)

ako ay ganap na Nars na!

take 1 lang! woohoo! Lord, salamat po!

maraming magagandang bagay ang naganap. maraming biyayang nakamit. maraming bagong kaibigang nakilala... maraming kaalaman at karanasan na pwedeng maikwento sa iba. maraming kailangan pasalamatan!

masaya!

i've been meaning to blog about my adventures in manila. hehe. but i didnt feel like writing for the longest time. so what im going to do is to just rewrite some of my thoughts here from my phone. whatever happened to my written journal? pffft.

as i was about to open my phone to retype my previous thoughts, it went dead! well, might as well just blog about my thoughts now.

i was talking to my mom earlier and she's scolding me for not going to the doctor to have myself checked. i didnt want to hear her chatter about it. so i just said 'uh huh...uhuh' with a slight yamot tone on my voice. i realized after that she's just doing whatever she has to do (you know, nagging.) for our own good. haaay.

He was online today. for some reason, he's not popping up on my screen saying 'petch!'. SO WHY IS HE BEING SUCH A SNOB? (as if i should even care) hrmmm... im just a little bit paranoid. why? cos compared to all my guy friends, he's the only one who thinks that girls usually hit on him... AND guys like him snob on girls who hit on them... SO, this made me wonder; DOES HE THINK----?... BUT I NEVER-----!.... oh well... *kamot ulo* the heck with that? hehe. or maybe he realized we are not meant to be super friends after all. but... thats akay... No sweat. :)

anyway! *stares at the ceiling* did i eat dinner? oooh... yeah, i did eat an oven heated swiss mushroom burger which tasted like burned wax. i left the paper wrappings with it while it's heating up.

i was absent at nugabest today. i felt quite sick and i didnt want to fall in line with the geriatrics. i may be feeling the 'healing reaction', if it was true. dangit.

sample lang ito

sample lang. Wow! ang galing naman. gumagana na ulit ang import/ export system ng multiply to blogger. yehey! :) masaya ito...

hrmm.. ano ba ang magandang ishare. oh.. eto... lately, nagpupunta kami nila ate aimee sa NUGA BEST CENTER para magpa- moxibustion therapy.. so far so good. :) maganda ang feeling after ng therapy. although ayoko munang magshare kung ano ang mga pagbabago sa katawan ko kasi gusto ko sure na ako bago ako mag testimonial sa kanila. i want to make sure na hindi lang "psychological" ito. hehe. Irerecommend ko talaga ang free therapy na ito sa mga matatanda na may mga masasakit sa kanilang katawan at sa mga kabataan na hypochondriac o sa mga tanong may sakit. BASTA! pag mas marami pang magagandang pagbabago, saka na ako mag sshare ng testimonial. hehe. so, eto palang ang ginagawa ko sa buhay...

naghahanap ng trabaho? nako dapat ay maghanap narin ako. sa aug may training ako sa redcross so hindi naman idle habang nagaantay.

yun lang so far. next week, pramis papacheck na ako sa doctor. sa monday! as in sa monday! hindi na ako magpapaligoy ligoy pa... tas dadalhin ko narin ang laptop ko sa service center... kainis. hardware pa ata ang may problema. tsk tsk.

pang good mood naman, mag pho-photoshoot narin ako ng nature. sana lang hindi tag ulan.. hrmm... peroooo, magandang concept ang ulan sa shooting... hrmmm.... next week din yan

oonga pala... nag promise din ako sa blog ko na gagawa ako ng testimonials sa mga nakatutuwang lecturers ng RCAP. salamat sa kanila talaga. kung ano man ang result na lalabas, pasalamat parin ako sa mga inputs na binigay nila samin. at masasaya silang tao. kaya they are very likable. sana ang memory nila ay hindi mabura sa aking isipan... sana maiinspire parin ako pag maisip ko sila... parang pag naiisip ko si Sir Hen at si Dra. Daza, nakakainspire sila talaga pag dating sa larangan ng medisina at narsing dahil makikita mo talaga ang dedikasyon nila sa kanilang trabaho... hindi basta basta... kaya lubos parin ang aking pasasalamat sa kanila. :) amen.

sana ang mga plano ay hindi mapako. bow! hehe.

:(

i think someone hates me...

mental conversations

i thought, "imaginary conversations? hindi e.. di eto yung term na hinahanap ko. arrrggghh." ok so now that i remembered, it's supposed to be MENTAL not IMAGINARY. haha.... so why was i thinking about it? wala lang. naisip ko lang. i was talking to aiza the other day and asked, 'is it normal that i create these mental pictures in my head and converse with people created by my imagination?"... she said, "yuh. di ka nag iisa." haha... it's fun actually. like daydreaming.

i'm about to finish a 22 page reviewer for RESEARCH. i should've finished hours ago.. ha! anyway...

wala lang maisip

magandang gabi, blog. kasalukuyan ay 6:56 pm ngayon. ako ay nagpahinga muna sa pagbabasa ng aking mga previous exams sa LMR at Prof. Adjustment. naaliw naman ako at marami din akong natutunan sa aming naging lecturer na si Mrs. Capili. Magaling sha. ngayon ko lang nauunawaan ang mga bagaybagay tungol sa subject na yun. Salamat din pala kay Mr. Leocadio sa napaka komikong reviewer tungkol sa research. pinadali nito ang Research subject.

ang init init parin kahit palapit na ang June. kanina umulan.. saglit lang. pakiramdam ko nga na hindi man lang pumatak sa lupa ang ulan... nag evaporate kaagad.

tungkol sa pre-diabetis: hindi pa pala ako nakakapag kwento tungkol sa aking kondisyon. pinatawan ako ni Dra. Carreon ng pre-diabetic (condition).... badtrip talaga! pigil na pigil ako sa mga pagkain na kinakain ko. ayan tuloy... payatot na ako... kulang nalang saakin ay mga papel de hapon. pwede na akong maging saranggola... liliparin ng hangin. haaay.. anyway... mas ok narin na ganto kesa naman mag karon ako ng mga komplkasyon balang araw... nasa huli ang pag sisisi... kaya DIET muna tayo ngayon.... 6 months! anim na bwan bago ako mag pa pacheckup ulit. ang tagal pa. sana naman e may pagbabago na by that time.

hrmmm.. ano pa ba ang kkwento ko sayo... wala pa ulit... sige hanggang sa muli. dito muna.

post graduation entry

it's been days after the graduation but it doesn't feel like it. maybe because we are still in school reviewing for the much awaited exam on july. woooh. sometimes, i don't want to think about it cos anxiety is creeping all over. ever since the world began, i have been challenged with test taking. anyway, i'll stop talking about it as of now. i'll just study and study for it. no, i won't say it. i'll just do it.. *ziiip*

ok, so what's up with me? before the graduation, ate aimee and i frequently went to manila to buy stuff for the graduation, as well as for the upcoming weddings (yah know.. dresses and shoes). thank goodness, my OC tendencies didn't come up that time. ate aimee didn't (and still doesnt) like to disclose where we went. so i'm just going to show some of the pictures. hehe.

hrmm. graduation day: tita mely, tita lucy, trisha and ate rochie attended my graduation. :)! we had our small celebration in Faustina's in Los Banos. it was a small place like Berty's. but they have the freshest food served. loved the food. thanks to ate rochie's treat! :) i ordered the tomato spaghetti with white cheese. i also tasted the crispy fish fillet with freshly blended tomato dip. sooo YUM! :D luuuurved it! :D

after the graduation: back to school. we just finished medical surgical nursing and the professional preparation. the old atty. was quite funny. he was like a grandfather telling stories to his grandchildren. his accent was hilarious! hahaha! :)

btw, i have seen my diabetician/ diabetologist (haha, i dunno what these doctors are called) . she told me to eat whatever i like for 3 days! NO DIETING! hrmmm... well, when did i ever diet anyway? hahaha! i'm excited. later, im going to eat @ mr. jones (the diner) in makati and meet up with my old friend, frankie. :) anyway.. after 3 days of pigging out, my blood will be tested for OGTT and Hgba1c. Lord, i hope everything will be normal. and i promise and try to eat healthier. actually i did start eating healthier for the past few weeks. i seldom eat white rice. i cook my own high fiber red rice and rolled oatmeal. i also bought the cocosugar with a low glycemic index of 35. i drink milk every morning (errr, sometimes i forget to drink 'em) and i take vitamin C, too! :) should i want something sweet, i choose the sugar free stuff but i try to get rid of foods with aspertame. hrmm, i choose those with maltodextrose and sucralose which are sugar substitutes. :D

geez, i have to get going now.

graduation practice and random blabber

i don't know why we should practice the mass songs. i mean, they could just flash the lyrics on the lcd and follow the tune. that would be easy. i would agree to have a meticulous practice if the songs had second voices and all that ekek... but nah, there aren't.

the practice was done at around 8:45pm. good thing we have cable and was able to watch american idol replay on starworld. i'm not liking the A.I this year. they picked out beautiful and handsome contestants but less talented compared to season 7 (david cook's time). though particularly, i do like didi, big mike and shibhon. i just don't feel any connection with them. maybe that's the trend. i mean, they took MILEY CYRUS as a mentor last night! she's not even a good singer. her tone is all over the place. her recording voice seemed to be edited. (no offense to miley fans out there but that's what i think.) but, let me tell you, she does have a great stage presence. Disney taught her well.

lately, i feel like a melting pot of emotional baggage. i feel like a counselor sometimes. haha. it's great that people entrust their feelings to me. i learn from them, too. although, i don't get to use the therapeutic style of communication. i get carried away sometimes, giving out my own opinions. not therapeutic according to psych nursing. oops.

i should be studying right now.

dear blog,

alam mo, sorry... sorry at naiiwan na kita mag isa. hindi na kita mashado nakkwentohan tungkol sa mga nangyayari sakin... hindi na ako nakakapagbuhos ng emosyon sayo.. pasensya na.

sige kkwentohan kita. summary lang kasi dami nang nangyari. (konti lang actually).

1. maligaya talaga ako at naipalabas namin ang aming pagtatanghal sa asian civ nuong nakaraang linggo. natutuwa ako sa mga nagsasabing "mukhang major production yan ah". haha. kung alam lang nila, nag cramming kami jan... ang gaganda ng mga suot ng aking mga kaklase. nagpahiwatig na may pakialam sila para sa presentation na to. nakakatuwa! meron man kaming hindi pagkakaunawaan nuong gabi ng paghahanda, naging maayus naman ang lahat. sobrang nakakapagod nga lang. parang 1st time kong maiyak sa pagod. narealize ko, na pag ikaw ang leader (mejo parang naging leader din kasi ako dito), hindi ka bibigyan ng recognition... IKAW ang magbibigay ng recognition sa mga ka group mo... ang tanging recognition lang na matatanggap ko e yung mga compliments. hehe. im not too big on recognition anyway. napaisip lang ako. at isa pa, at one point, feeling ko wala akong ginawa or konti lang. most of the time, when i do something, hands on ako. e eto, hands on din naman, pero nag delegate ng task. nawweirdohan lang ako. maganda ito for a "last performance" sa school.

2. dahil nakalanghap ng thinner sa pagpipinta at sa puyat ay bumaba ang resistensya. sumama parin sa mga llanto sister para mag gala sa tagaytay. halata sa litrato, namumutla na ako... pero picture taking parin. hehe.

3. full blown fever na ito. wow. badtrip talaga. inabot pa sa review ang aking umaapoy na temperatura, panlalamig ng katawan at paninikip ng paghinga. buti nakaka-absorb pa ako ng impormasyon. ang topic ay PEDIA. magaling ang lecturer. bunggaloid! :D

4. psych ang topic nanaman. :) hihi. sobrang natutuwa talaga ako kay sir KIKO. sobrang nakakatawa na hindi slapstick. eto:

- meron akong studyante, bawat pagpasok nya sa classroom nagbibilang ng ilaw.. tinanong ko kung bakit.. sabi nya ritwal na daw nya yun... e kung bigyan ko iyon ng christmas light (audience: LAUGHS)

- ale: (to sir kiko's friend) ikaw babae, sama ka ng sama sa bakla, na pagkakamalan ka tuloy pokpok!

kiko: (babbling to self habang hinahawi ang bangs)... eeh, ako lang naman ang kasama nito a... napagkamalan pang bugaw.. (audience: LAUGHS)

he was really FUNNY!!! and his facial expression, HILARIOUS! i'm gonna miss that guy. gusto ko shang maging friend. pero, unreachable. lol.

5. sa wakas, nakapagbayad narin ng mga tax. at least accomplished na iyon. wala nang problema. nakaabot ako sa 10% off! yeah! kape kape with ate aimee. excited na sha sa kasal nya. nahahawaan tuloy ako sa pagka excited. napa, sign up tuloy ako sa isang wedding website. LOL!

6. tomorrow is another day. manonood ako ng ALICE IN WONDERLAND. sana hindi ako ma disappoint.

ayun, so that ends my blogging for today. i will try to write more often. i missed you, dear blog! haha till next time!

Love,

Amo mo.

After watching G-force

it's funny how life could be taken away from someone just in once snap of a finger. after all, life's just borrowed. i saw "G-force" tonight and noticed Justin Mentell (the pet store guy). it told myself, ang pogi naman nito. hence, i searched him online. Sad. i learned that he died February 1, 2010. He was 27. a handsome, talented young man, now resting 6 feet under. Life is truly short. he's lucky in a way. not only that he was able to explore the world and had achieved something, he will no longer see and experience the deteriorating world.

Mr. Mentell, Rest In Peace..

Praning

i'm kinda stressed right now ... not because of all the work needed to be done for school but because of my assumed current medical condition. i have to visit an endocrinologist to have my blood checked and see if my blood glucose is normal. i pray to God that it is normal... eating is happiness for me.. if that will be taken away from me, that'll be super saaad! i can't eat chocolates, chicken and sea foods. now, rice.. and dairy queen??? i feel like crying...

i'm grieving... for an ASSUMED condition... so i really have to have myself checked immediately. *sniff*

ONCE

ONCE (movie).... this film brought back a lot of memories. got teary-eyed for a moment there. love love love the soundtrack. :)

Moonlight Sonata

since i have started blogging yesterday about figure skating, i decided to post another performance by the "Ice All Stars 2009". i was in awe when i saw this. i love watching group skatings! it's like synchronized swimming.. only they're not swimming... By the way, Madkata, thank you so much for dropping by and linking ilia's website! i was thrilled to see him all grown up. he looks way different now (still handsome as ever) with that sun-tanned skin and well-developed deltoid muscles. (haha). i noticed, he smiles a lot, too. he actually looked like that football Beckham guy. Agree?

Moonlight Sonata. I've heard this music once. since then i've been trying to find the title of this music...and whoa, hello! thank you po! nalaman ko narin sa wakas ang title mo!

The video was taken from Bodashiri's youtube. :)

winter olympics... coming REAL soon!

i remember myself watching the figure skating competition way back in 1998 winter olympics. haha! that time, it was tara lipinski who was titled the youngest (and still is) gold medalist in the winter olympic games. technically, she was awesome. she was able to execute every jump, every spin accurately. but to be honest (in my opinion), (not that i'm an expert or anything) i thought she was too stiff. she looked like a twig twirling and swirling on the ice. LOL. but, haha, she was great. everyone liked her. what the heck, right? i learned to appreciate her style, crisp and solid.

Ilia Kulik, the russian guy i fell in love with, was the most awesome, brilliant skater i've ever seen. he carried out his moves not only with utmost precision but with grace and fluidity. i used to imagine dancing with him on ice... *twinkling eyes* ahihihihi. :D look, he's still my prince after all these years! LOL.

Winter Olympics 2010 is going to be held in Canada. i have no idea who'll compete in this year's figure skating competition. I may have outgrown my likeness in the sport. i miss it a lot, though. it was more of a hobby to me. (although, i was really planning on joining the Philippine team just to get those cool jackets. ahahaha!).

that's me, leading the bunch. Miss these guys.

mom: i don't get you. is there something about you i should know?? huh???

son: mom... there's nothing you should know....

mom: (galit na) but why do you (blah blah blah..)...

too much eavesdropping, eh? haha. the mom looked very ethnic and the son's obviously half caucasian. the mom was scolding her son for something. i imagine marlene aguilar scolding jason ivler. lol!

melay and i met @ boston cafe in LB this afternoon. thanks for the treat, melay! congrats to your kuya for having a successful biz. kudos! :D

i won!!! :D

i was ecstatic when i won the lottery! 50 PESOS!!!! ahehehe. nay adelle and i won. haha!

last week: i haven't been writing here for quite a while as i have been quite busy at school. last week, my classmates and i got really busy editing our cases! it's supposed to be a simple task. but, there were too many corrections. all of us went through a great deal of stress. printing and reprinting... tsk! too much time spent on that silly document. ugh.

today: i've met another set of friends from assumption. (to be continued); dinner at Alba with the family. (to be continued)

now: is reading "Dating Advice: 7 Mistakes Single Women Make"... hrmmm. it makes sense.

sorry. i will continue this later. hehe. :D

ok ting blog na to: http://boy-okoy.blogspot.com/2006_11_01_archive.html

give thanks, give back

funny part from father suarez's sermon.

father suarez: a woman came to me, crying, asking for help. she said, "father! i have a problem. i'm 45 years old.. and still don't have a boyfriend!!! huhuhu.".sabi ko, ang unsual naman. hindi kasi madalas na gantong problema ang natatanggap ko. i didn't know what to tell or advise her. so i prayed for her. while praying for her in silence, she suddenly exclaimed, "father! i know what i should do! i should lose weight!". i said to myself, "Diyos ko po, salamat naman po! alam na nya ang gagawin nya.". so, i celebrated mass after encountering the woman. after the mass, i saw her, again, waving her hands. "father! andito pa ako!". she said "i have a problem, father.". "what is it?". "i don't know how to lose weight! what should i do! :(" . i thought, "Diyos ko po, Hesukristo, ano ang ipapayo ko sa babaing ito?". and then, i heard the Lord whisper to me on what to tell the woman. i told the woman this, "this is what you should do: DON'T EAT TOO MUCH!"... after a few months, a womam, slim and sexy, came to me, along with a tall guy. she said, "father, do you remember me? i was the one who approached you! i want to thank you". i stared at her and tried recalling... "abay oonga, ikaw nga! anong nangyari, ang payat payat mo na ah!" the woman, answered, "e father, kapag nagugutom kasi ako at nakakakita ng pagkain, naaalala ko ang mukha mo. nawawalan ako ng gana! thank you ah! this is my boyfriend pala..."

(hagalpakan ng tawa ang audience)

LOL! i really love fr. suarez's humor.