yield?

sabi ni ert... yield daw... ok sige.. YIELD! merry xmas!

pathophysiology of badtrip

stimulus... badtrip on frontal lobe... sympathetic NS... loss of appetite...

i just made this up. it's christmas day and i feel awful. 1stly, i dont feel like it's christmas... the celebration felt artificial. my brother, who came back from the states...i dont feel his presence much. my sister, well we had a bit of a misunderstading coz she cant handle constructive criticism... so, i'm experiencing a dose of badtrip... i dunno what's going to happen the next few days. maybe my sister would still be mad at me. my parents... they'll be coming home... without my bagels.. huhu.. :(

great huh? sucks...

BUT~~!!! like what my cousin said, it's christmas. bawal asar...

panaginip and random thoughts

ang sama ang panaginip ko. pinagalitan daw si ate ni momi at dadi sa internet! inaaaay....

pero meron din naman nakakatawa. yung bagong friend namin (thru ate maddie meron), meron daw fan club at ang girlfriend nya ang leader... tas may mga banners silang ginawa at ang mga nakasulat, 'sweldon' ----> e hindi naman ito ang pangalan nya. hahaha!

ok, ngayong araw nato hindi ko pa alam ang gagawin ko... pero ito yung plan

1. punta ng LB para kunin ang bagong ATM ko
2. punta as chinabank makati para icheck ang kaperahan ko
3. sana may makipagkita saaking kaibigan para celebrate kami ng christmas...

ingit naman ako... si ate at bunso meron na silang mga individual christmas parties with friends... ako wala pa. wala pa kasing nagyayaya e. well... maghahanap talaga ako ng sarili kong party. :) kaso nga lang ang mga madadaling yayain nasa province. oh well... anyway, life goes on .

mashadong maligaya

mashadong maligaya ako kagabi dahil sobrang nakakatawa ang mga kaklase ko. christmas party namin kahapon at walang pakundangang nagpakitang gilas ang mga bata sa pagsayaw at pagkanta. naubos ang boses ko sa katatawa at pagkanta sa videoke. sumiklab pa ang enerhiya ko sa pagsayaw dahil sa ilang beses naming pagppractice ng sayaw.

sa sobrang ligaya ko, e ngayon wala na tuloy ako sa mood. tas masakit pa ang chan ko. sana hindi ako nagkaron ng bacterial infection sa kinain kong isaw at ilagn paglagok ng tubig sa swimming pool.

ito nanaman.

... nakahain ang mga gamit namin sa lamesa. nakabalandrang mga kagamitan. cellphone, wallet, camera.... mga papel, nagkalat. mga libro, lahat... nasa lamesa lahat ng mga importanteng gamit... :(

walang hudyat.. hindi tumahol ang mga pusa... sumayaw paloob ang mga sakim.

...

kakawalang gana.

badtrip.

hrmmm

hehe... pwede!

Death and Butterflies

"whoa!" ang gulat ko sa paroparong biglang lumipad sa harapan ko. ang pakpak nya ay kulay brown na may stripes na puti at konting polkadots na brown din.

pag merong namatay o mamamatay palang, nakakita ako ng mga paro parong ganto.

totoo kya na ang mga hayop na ito ay nagdadala ng kaluluwang namayapa na?

hrmmm.

kuya norli, rest in peace.

RIP MICHAEL CRICHTON

"patay na si michael crichton!!!"... ang una kong reaksyon sa pagkakabasa ko sa blog ni bulitas (http://bulitas.tk/) ... ay nakakalungkot naman! isa pa naman sha sa mga paborito kong mga tao. kamamatay lang nya 2 araw na ang nakalipas. :(

RIP, doc.

it's 3:37 am and here i am still blogging. i don't quite spend my time doing this unlike before but i decided to type in my thought herer once in a while. im fond of reading my own written thoughts anyway.

so how was my day? same old, same old. we again had our hospital duty today. i was assigned to a 64 y/o male patient with HASCVD, unable to move the upper and lower right extremities and unable to speak but able to communicate with sign language. his vital signs were already stable and was able to go home earlier today. i handled him for 2 consective days.

the patient was funny. hahaha. not a mocking insulting way.. but just funny.

me: 'lolo, nilalamig po ba kayo?'

(lolo: sign language, with blank staring eyes yet with a smiling face)

lola: 'gusto nya ikaw ang mag kumot sa kanya'

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lola: (telling me) kunwari kunin mo yung 500 pesos nya...

me; lolo akin nalang itong pera nyo!

(lolo: tightens his grip on his money)...

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i remember oprah's guest, a famous neuro-anatomist (?) who was able to recover from a coma. from what i have remembered, she relayed her story when she was in a coma. she said during that time, people around her spoke like animals. she cant understand anyone. she cant even understand what she was saying. and she thought it was cool (since she was able to examine herslf)... weird woman!

maybe there's still hope for my patient to speak. of course the doctors will tell the patients the worse thing that may happen. but only time can tell the level of recovery of the patient. i just hope for the best for lolo.
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photography sessions

well, today, my cousin, sister, my cousin's friend and I wandered around manila to have photo shooting... all 3 of them were using DSLR! i envy them sooo much since i was using a crummy old digital camera (no offense). i didn't appreciate the photos i took. but, well, next time, i'll bring my sony digital still camera to get nicer pictures. i'll just post here some of the 'best pictures' i took from the photo session.

sooo disappointing...

(maybe it's not the camera... maybe it's me who needs practice. haha.. what heck.)

ayan... picture namin kamina! dalawang litrong tubig ang natanggal sa baga ng aking kaibigan. kulay brown, parang iced tea. hindi talaga natin tiyak kung ano ang manyayari saatin sa mundong ito kahit gaano pa tayo kaingat sa ating sarili. noh? haaay. nakakalungkot lang. kanina namimilipit sha sa sakit pagkatapos operahan. hindi sha makasandal dahil may tubong nakasaksak sa kanyang lower chest area sa right side. hindi patalaga tiyak kung ano ang tunay nyang sakit.

ganun pa man, nakakaluwag ng pakiramdam na makitang hindi malubha ang kalagayan nya. nakakatawa at nakakapag salita sha... "tres tres" ang favorite word nya e. haha. na sstress na sha sa kaka tres tres ng mga doctor.

natutuwa rin ako dahil ok ang napangasawa nya. at ok ang buong pamilya! thank you talaga Lord! dahil talagang malaking challenge ito.

sana lang maging ok na sha sa lalong madaling panahon dahil nag hinhintay ang kanyang baby sa singapore...

pagaling ka na mygz para mag ggirly nights tayo ulit! :)

'is the character fictional or real?' jr asked me after reading the blog i just typed earlier. i said 'semi.'... 'totoo bang nanyari to?'... 'oo, totoong nanyari yan.. saakin.'... nyeeh. that was the first. i've never spoken about the incident to anyone, even to ert or mygz. it was not a big deal. yet quite a significant event since that does not happen very often... (at least for me).

i felt ashamed when i told my friend, jr, about it coz im not the type who blahs about that kind of stuff. i guess i was over-thinking if the 'love concept' had gone through my system in anyway. falling in love, falling out of it and moving on were some of the topics and I CANT CONTRIBUTE! i'm not wishing to have a broken relationship but i'm just bored of saying, "ah, wala parin hanggang ngayon". haha. parang ok. there's nothing new about me...

this friend of mine may think im pathetic. haha.. buti nalang change topic kaagad! whew!

(note: hoi, im not desperate! reader... you might think i am... but im not. i just have this normal reactions during social gatherings. ok? )

ok.. so before i lay myself to sleep, (so early in the morning now!), let me just share to you what happened today...

i came late to our PS41 get together. i came waaaay past the call time... hehe. just made a few alibis. the real reason why i was late: i had to remove all the bushy hairs on my legs so that i could wear my favorite skirt! haha! pants.. i didnt want to wear pants coz the climate was too warm...

Little Italy Avenidos was the resto we went to. the food was great... the laugh trip was great... people around me were great. great! haha! I missed them, really. we found ourselves wearing the same shirt color.. black . parang may lamay... (except chito).. so as usual, kamustahan, laugh trip about: the past experiences on the floor; me, being koripot; chito's hilarious face, frankie's highfaluting tagalog; jr's comments and the chito and karen past warfare. claire was having some issues with her ex bf, so we also talked about that.

after the food trip. we went to G4 to check movies. we lost interest in watching any film and got into taking pictures in every place we went to: in the walk ways of glorietta, the highschool musical life-size card boards, etc etc etc.

we got tired walking and laughing so we went to starbucks to have coffee/ tea... and to take more pictures. really had a good laugh and a good reminiscing. somehow, i miss the fun, lively call center lifestyle, tho i hate working in the wee hours of the morning (like im doing now!)..

and the jollibee days! Geez.. how i miss the moments we laugh about our calls, the customers, people at the floor. hahaha.

this picture was taken in the PS makati elevator: apol, kaye, me, kaka, chito, claire, jr. i think it was taken in 2006 or 2007.

and here we are now. :)

i tore my favorite skirt in the bus. hate it!

piggyback ride

pagnapapadaan ako sa may harap ng isang hotel patungo sa MRT, napapakanta ako ng..

i remember
you walkin in the rain
no umbrella with your arms
around me
how can i forget
that was the last time...
isa saw you...

waiting for a taxi
getting on without me
and your sorry
how can i forget
that was the last time
i saw you

blah blah blah...

parang walang sense yung kanta kasi hindi ko alam ang buong lyrics....
nagiging sentimental lang bigla... kasi ang weird nuong panahon nayon... masaya pero weird...

natandaan ko tuloy si tim at tam nuong nag 'date sila'. si tim yung lalaki... si tam yung babae... si tam hindi talaga sha marunong makipag date...

int. sa chowking ng bandang alas quatro ng hapon. nakapila si tim at tam para bumili ng halo halo...

si tim ang unang nakapagorder sunod si tam...
bumubunot ng ng wallet si tim ng pera mula sa kanyang wallet...

tam: hindi, wag na, ako nalang. treat kita. (smiling face pa. nagniningning ang mga mata sa kilig)

utak ni tam: huh? tama ba ting ginagawa ko? dapat ang lalaki ang nang lilibre ah! hrmmm... pero sa bagay, less fortunate naman sha kaya, sige go lang...

hayun. masayang nag kwentuhan si tim at tam. nagkakilala sila ng masmalalim... pero mejo lang... nakangiting kumain ng malinamnam na halohalo si tim at si tam....

si tam, iniisip parin nya kung tama ang nanyari sa date nila... hrmmm

ito isa pang situation...

pagkatapos nila manood ng isang poetry reading sa picc, sinamahan ni tim si tam sa may MRT station... alas diyes ng ng gabi at umaambon... nakabukas ang mga poste ng dilaw na ilaw na nakahanay sa ayala ave...

tim: halika... kargahin kita! (habang pumopormang lumuhod para i piggy back ride si tam)

kilig si tam!!! PERO...

utak ni tam: sh*t! baka mafeel nya yung boobs ko.. parang ang bastos ko naman mag isip... teka...

tam: ah eh... wag na! mabigat ako! at chaka tusoktusok... ikaw nalang ang bubuhatin ko. :)

utak ni tam: p*tch* wrong move nanaman ata... oops..

tim: uhhh... osige...

hayun, nag piggyback ride na silang dalawa.. Binuhat na ni tam si tim.

so, ayan ang isang parte ng scenario ni tim at tam sa kanilang love story... rather... MU story... kasi never naman naging sila.

ayan... galing no? nakagawa ako ng MU story. hahaha. :)

WALA ka sa LOLO ko!

"yung lolo ko... ano yung lolo.. ko kasi .. ano.... (blah) (blah)"...sabi nung tambay sa kanto namin. parang gusto kong sumabat, "ano ba! wala na ang punchline mo... wag ka na mag joke!!!" .. pero shempre shut up nalang ako kasi baka ako sundan..

haha, nakakatawa!

baygon at lysol

ang sakit ng ilong ko. bumili ako ng baygon at ng lysol kahapon . kanina, mi-nasacre ko ang mga ipis na naninirahan sa cabinet sa ilalim ng lababo namin. ang dami nila!!!! maliliit lang sila. meron konting malalaki. yuck. may mga small cracks kasi sa ding ding kaya doin sila nagsisitago.... misyon kong mawala na ang pugad nila sa loob ng bahay namin. kaya nga bibili sana ako ng basurahan na sobrang laki at may takip para araw araw akong mag tatapon sa labas... parang nalalasahan ko yung baygon. tas mejo hinika ako.. aynako. bukas meron ulit duty sa ospital. maaga nanaman! 6am. owell.

ang tataba ng anak ni merry... ang liwanag lang ng pagkakuha ko. hehe. cute no?

clean sheets :)

i changed our beddings today!!! feels clean again. i just wish the vacuum cleaner is working. the bedbugs are killing me.

there are some entries that i want to share here than my other more public blog. i guess this blog is much private than other 1. :) i was speaking with fatima earlier and sharing to her my imaginations. hahahaha. it's quite interesting so i decided to blog it.

i was imagining my life in the future... this is my dream house. a very relaxing place. quiet.. with wonderful neighbors, nice weather... when i have free time, i'll spend time drinking lemonade in the porch, reading a nice, feel good book. :)

Now, let me give you a tour inside my beautiful home...

Welcome to my cozy little bedroom. :) i love the big windows and the color of the walls... see those lamps? they're my night lights. i love to read before i sleep so they'll be really useful.

this is my lovely kitchen. i loooove cooking. i can cook pasta all day!!! there's an oven, too. so i can bake whatever i want!

and that's my living room. :)

this is my dining room. i looove the really big glass windows. it's like dining oudoors. :)

Friends Going away

my closests friends are leaving the country!!! yesterday, ert and i went to glorietta. she'll be going to indonesia next week... im going to miss her. mygz, of course has been in singapore for a long time now.. :) oh well... it's nice being at the prime of your life. 25 years old... the year of being 25 is i guess the time when you really reach the dreams you really love.... i just got delayed. haha... oh well.

hrmmm.... i have decided. i will leave my teeth alone... i'll just do what the doctors say about it... if they find nothing, fine. live it that way. i just hope that i'll have 1 doctor. i dont want to change doctors anymore!

A new website

as you can see, my profile has changed! well, that's actually for my new site. cant fuigure out how to separate the two. but that's fine... :)

Get Extra Cash Online

i've been going through the internet all day finding online jobs to have extra cash without being employed in a real company which will be more convinient for me since im still in college (2 years to go!)... i came across with this site http://www.emailcashpro.com/?r=nanaxiu.. it's pretty interesting coz if this thing works, i can get paid without lifting a finger. and without any cash outs! hrmmm.. well, i'll keep you posted with whatever happens. haha.

feeling ko may masamang manyayari sakin. sana hindi naman ako mamatay. ewan ang weird... sana walang manyari sa kahit kanino. ay nako

random

this is one of the newbies. was born late jan 2008. cute, eh? :) that's my leg. haha.

this was Coogee before he died. he looks ok in the pic, right? as if he's just sleeping. most of the cats that we had who died looked terrible. Got really sad when he died. he was a fighter! he was the biggest cat we ever had. :( oh well...

he's the manager of the store shabu shabu resto in atc. he reminds me of Gyun Yoo of the koreanovela in channel 7. *hihi pogi!*

i can't describe the feeling of my k-9. it's a bit sensitive, but not too much and it's kinda tender. i dunno. i went to my makati dentist yesterday and he made me mouth guards, upper and lower. that's 5 gran! but i dont mind really. well, i asked him if i need braces. he said my teeth look fine. so that means i dont need it. i dunno, i just want to resolve this ugly experience of mine. LADIES AND GENTS, BOYS AND GIRLS, take care of your teeth!!!! dont get me wrong, i brush my teeth all the time. it just never occured to me that clenching and grinding at night while sleeping really can damage your teeth no matter how strong you think it is.

i never thought i had teeth problems. geez...

anyway, this morning, we had our Intramuscular injection demo. my professor gave me a 90% grade. that's good enough. knowing her, she never gives high marks. the return demo was smooth, though my hands were a bit shaky.

my partner hurt me. i know that distilled h2o is really painful, but the pain was prolonged because she got rattled when she got criticized by the professor. i got really nervous because my classmates got rattled as well when they saw the hub filled with blood. the needle went in different angles which tore my muscle tissues.... im having anxiety problems this past month, so when i heard them almost yelling at my partner, i felt like fainting... my other classmates said i was really pale. but see, that's fine. we are in school to learn... good thing, im not an angry person... my arm feels a little sore but, it's ok now.

my partner cried! haha. i quite know how she was feeling. like everyone was watching, thinking bad stuff about you.... tsk tsk... she'll get over it.

my head hurts already. i've been watching this new korean telenovela on dvd. it's called 'Coffee Prince'.. Koreans are really known for their cuteness and silliness.

Christmas break is almost over for me. Classes starts on Jan. 7. Geez, I haven't done much. I didn't go on a trip or anything... but ate rochie and i went to the science discovery center in MOA. it's an amusement park full of science in it.. haha... (duh..haha)... We had picture takings, just the two of us.. i wish our cousins would have come. i wish people in the states were here. it would've been fun. but it was fun with my sister.

Coogee.. i think he feels much better now. but he still can' walk straight. poor little cat... his hind legs are all bloody and swollen... we thought of putting him in a wheel chair for disabled cats...

Pan and Laira.. the twins, they're getting bigger and bigger. they are much more sociable than before. Mary and Meow2x are doing ok too... they're the mother of the house.

before the classes start, i'll try to go out more.. im becoming a zombie already.

NEW YEAR!!! (weeeh to 2008)

hello folks!!! welcome to the year 2008.. it's January 1 and again, it's a start of a new beginning. :) how do we start the year though? hrmmm, let's reflect on that.....

1. clean the house of course
2. have my RLQ checked by a doctor (hope im not dying)
3. call the violin teacher... i need to learn something i really love
4. know by heart the nursing processes.. read the books... haha
5. Do something nice...
6. do something new
7. travel around the philippines... start near... then far...
8. reconnect with OLD FRIENDS.... Relatives... Family
9. meet new people!!!

haaay... what's in store fo me this 2008...? well, i hope, something exciting! something really new!